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2007-02-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

site now move to http://lovevivien.wordpress.com/
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2007-02-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

been sometime since i post le..hee..ok..past 2day went cycling wid my class..stay over the nite..den cos of alcohol..some ppl got drunk..hahaz..heng..im not one of them =P
went home early in the morning..wid my IC wid jiongfa..hahaz..i went home to slp la..so dammed tired la..slp till 3..den woke up by my family n dardar msg..hahaz..den after tt..i 4get wad happen le..hahaz..

todae went for my CC stuff as usual..den makan..den went over to my aunt hse to c baby..her new born baby..hong yu and hong an..hahaz..so dammed cute la..lolx..had buffet oso la..but the food doesn't fit my appetite..so nvr eat much la..jus drank alot of grape juice..i guess..after tt..went over to dardar hse..but quarrel somehow..dunno y jus feel that she change liao la..doesn't seems to care abt mi lyk last time le..last time sae she play game nvr call mi den i will lyk wan hang up la..she will lyk..sae sorri..den gave mi those sad sad tone..but todae..guess wad she sae?she jus sae..up to u..totally broke my heart la..sob..den at her hse downstair..she gave mi those fuck up attitude la..den still..i have to gave in..hais..she's not use to be liddat de..hais..realli hope to c the last u soon =(

after tt..went up to her hse..she study awhile hoop..den we went out..actually plan to find iiso material de..but last min..serene sae don need..so gd lo..we went to cini instead..went to outside arcade de sofa..sit there c ppl play pool n para..haha..den we went in to play daytona..as usual..lose to her..haha..den we went back to sit again..den saw a slut playing para para..so shou bu liao la..wanna go slap her face sia..lolx..n i guess im so "lucky" todae la..sit there oso got ppl ask mi donate money..kau.."lucky" enough rite? ==

after tt..we rush home to watch PCK finale..last epsiode le..no more liao..so must watch..but guess wad..my stomachsuddenly become veri pain..den go toilet..pain all the way from cini to now la..!!! it's killing mi lo..sob..lucky dardar still got care abt mi =D
after the show, i went home myself..lonely on the train again..sian..reach home took a bath..den now i blogging wid my stomach veri pain..sob..hais..hao ba..guess i blog till here ba..blog some other time..

*tot dardar nvr write..but i still wan to write..LOVE U LOTS..muackz =D

2007-02-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

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2007-02-06T10:43:00.000+08:00

oOps..seems like i realli veri veri long nvr update le..haha..nvm..shall update now..hee..hmm..mi n dardar finally 5mths le..hee..long or short?realli veri hard to decipher..maybe tot it's long becos we have gone thru so much..bearing wid each other temper and trying our best to keep this relationship from not goin downwards and keeping it as fun and sweet as possible..true..we alwiz quarrel..but at least we know how to gave in..how to ti liang each other..short as in..a blink in the eyes..5mths le..!!! times flies..I LOVE MY BABY ALOT ALOT..muackz..

ok..now for sch..it's realli been very busy for everyone of us..projectS n projectS and projectS..argh! do until everyone is so tired la..is TP mad??? are they planning to kill us or wad?can die de lo..so much to do la..esp tt stupid iiso la..make my grp go do..but in the end..let us extend..waste money and time..!!! wth la..ask her go die better rite?
*projects are suffocating mi

hmm..write till here ba..hopefully got time to update soon..exam coming..hais..hope everyone will score good grade ba..n oso..MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING..!!! hee..wonder how tis yr my brithday will be..fun?lonely?....hmm..i guess my birthday wun be lonely..cos got dardar to pei mi..hee..jus hope it wud be a fun day ba..all the best to everyone having exam tis yr..n olevel student oso..hee..n A VERY THANKEW TO THOSE HU HAVE GONE THRU THICK AND THIN WID MI =D

Love dardar to bits...HAPPY 5MTH ANNIVERSARY!!!

2007-01-28T14:25:00.000+08:00

wahahah..memorable moment..certain worth blogging..y lei?cos now im in my oopg lab test ground..but cos teacher dowan release us..so got nth to do..so here blogging..hahaz..hmm..oopg lab test was easy..whahahah..i manage to find the solution for the last question which took mi quite some time la..hahaz..hmm..later gonna pei dardar down to bugis..she goin interview for job..gonna miss her..hais..em..hao la..blog till here..veri hard to blog with the teacher keep walking..tot he don care la..hahas..love dardar lots..muackz

2007-01-28T07:11:00.000+08:00

hais..dardar working todae le..sob sob..tis meant tt frm todae onwards..i will be lonely every sat le..sob..the thought of it makes my heart sink..sob..miss dardar so much so much..life without her is so miserable and long..i miss u lots dar..hais....miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss..no words can describe how much i miss u..hais..i wonder dardar miss mi as much as i miss her mahx?

2007-01-27T14:51:00.000+08:00

todae's kinda a bad day for mi..hais..went to sch early in the morning wid dardar..but i ended up waiting for them for 30min b4 someone come..sian..but tt's alright..im use to it..n someone actually told mi she will be late..so tt's ok..den went up to lvl 7 de lab to do iiso..n guess wad..i brought paper to sch jus to print my iiso..but i ended up having to buy paper for myself to print becos all the paper depleted..hais..n the bookshop don hav visio la..make mi run up run down lyk siao gina liddat..jus to print the stupid iiso..!!! argh! den after all the running..we went to eat mac..but on the wae..my freaking shoe sole came off..freak..the problem is..last nitez i jus got my dad to put more glue on it lo..!!! kau..nvm..tt's not the main pt..todae is my dcnk lab test..waited for 2hours b4 i can do mine la..n it make no difference if i do or not lo..i practically flunk the whole test..ip dunno how to calculate..subnet mask dunno how to calculate..hyperterminal gave mi problem..argh! sian la..den i was so fuck up tt i was the first among our class to step out of the exam ground wid such a short period..hais..there goes my 15%..sian..wonder if i will still pass my dcnk man..so scare..hais..den tml my oopg test..i did study la..but dunno will pass anot lei..n i mean ani tink below a B+ is consider fail..hais..sian..

plus tis 2 nitez keep quarreling wid dardar..sorrie..i realli din mean to..jus dunno wad is happening to mi..hais..miss ya so much now..how i wish u could be by my side n hug mi tight..nvr gonna let go..sorrie baby to make u so sad every now and then..but jus to let u noe..my heart will alwiz be wid u..n u will alwiz be the onli one in my heart..love u lots..muackz

2007-01-24T15:16:00.000+08:00

hahaz..cos dardar keep asking mi to post..so here im..lolx..actually there is one more post before tis de..but dunno y..my post is gone..so well..nvm..lazy to post again..

hmm..tis few day..more n more happy n xin fu each day..dardar starting to love mi more n more each day..can feel it de..hee..love dardar lots..muackz..project more n more..deadline is getting closer n closer..stress ah..ani one pls help man..gonna die liao..so much assignment on hand..n i haven even start my revision lo..kau..stress ah..hais..

hmm..dunno wad to post eh..everyday too xin fu le..so happy wid dardar each time..hee..
dardar..realli wish to be wid u 4eva..don eva leave mi..kk?wo ai ni 1314..muackz =D

2007-01-19T14:53:00.000+08:00

woo...seems lyk i hav not update my daily life for a long time..hmm..here it go..
hmm...tis week and last week is a busy week..have been rushing project almost everyday..every week..now im so lack of sleep la..need more slp..!!! hais..n becos not enough slp..mood not veri gd..hav been showing attitude n anger towards dardar more n more often..sorri dar..i will try to watch my temper..kk?love u lots..muackz

todae went to be a school guide alone..w/o the company of dardar..so lonely..hais..nvm..i shall be strong =P
but was so lonely todae la..except for the time tt dardar pei mi..tot she at a far place..but at least i noe she is ard mi..hee..but sorri dardar..no time to pei u..will try and make it up..kk?exam coming oso le..but i hav not study ani tink la..hais..sian..must work hard liao..sob..gambatei gambatei gambatei..go weemeng!!! go!!! hee..self motivate =P

dardar..no matter how much we quarrel..how unhappy we be..let's hold our hand tight and nvr let go..kk?everyone had attitude and is fan at times..let's jus try to understand each other and hopfully we change wad we r not gd at..kk?miss n love u lots..muackz

2007-01-12T02:00:00.000+08:00

hais..tis time de term test..to mi..is all flunk..so wad if i hav pass all till now?all my result sux..sux till i don even noe wad im doin..kau..kill mi man..y m i born so stupid..wad the hell m i doin here in tis world?everything simply sux..fuck fuck fuck..can i realli stil catch up wid the others?can i still do it?im realli veri tired le..too tired to do ani tink..do i still hav the will lyk how i use to hav?enlighten mi someone..hais...................................................

DO I STILL HAV THE WILL TO MOVE ON?

2007-01-10T02:58:00.000+08:00

hais..suppose to be in lec now..but i cant understand a single tink..na bei chee bye..fuck la..if continue liddat..i sure fail lyk siao liao la..knn..HOW SIA..hais..dammed stress now..cb..so sleepy now oso la..wanna slp so much..hais..FUCK FUCK FUCK

2007-01-09T09:21:00.000+08:00

yoyo~ so long nvr blog le..jus nice 1week..hahaz

hmm..but i guess i onli dardar will come view my page la..does not matter tt much oso..hahaz..
hmm..let's c wad tis past week have been doin..hmm..had been rushing project..playing hard..ani wae..jus dammed busy la..sian..ytd still rush project till 5plus tis morning lo..si bei sian..next time realli shd start assignment earlier le sia..sian..

em..this few day, tot a few quarrel, but still veri happy wid dardar..jus celebrate our 4th mth anniversary on the 5th of Jan..hee..love dardar lots..muackz..

hmm..dardar..we realli must learn how to control our temper le wor..cant dong bu dong jiu fa pi qi wor..hee..

gonna be more busy as time goes by..so mani assignment on hand..kill mi man..sian..
k la..gonna listen to teacher le..cya..blog when i free..hee

2007-01-02T15:59:00.000+08:00

new year, new beginning..HAPPY NEW YEAR my frienz =D

hmm..don feel lyk blogging wad happen tis few day..rather i wish to sae a few tink..em..as i sae..a tis is a brand new year..i hope to last wid my dardar till eternity..love u lots dardar..muackz..

2006-12-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

hais..everything todae was good..met dardar in the morning in sch to ask paul abt some hoop stuff..den went to withdraw money n buy our lunch..ate at my hse n use some computer before goin to the grand cathay to buy movie ticket..walk ard..had dinner..before goin back to catch Death Note 2..it was a nice show..after tt..it was sth bad that happen..hais..don wanna go into detail wad happen..jus everything is my fault..if it wasn't for mi..everyone would not be unhappy..everyone wud not be sad..jus all my fault..is right for dardar to be angry with mi..im jus a mood-spoiler..4ever mi..first time she is so angry wid mi..hais..weemeng ah weemeng ah..y u alwiz make her sad..u r jus a useless bastard hu could not gave ur gf wad she wan and alwiz wanna tie her next to u..jus being a pest ard her..u shdn't even exist here in tis world man..hais..wud she even 4gave u for wad u did?well..i guess even if she don..i oso deserve it..hahaha...USELESS BASTARD..!!!

2006-12-23T16:38:00.000+08:00

argh! fuck up for 2days..

early in the morning made dardar sad..hais..how stupid of mi..sometime i realli ask myself..y do i alwiz pick a quarrel wid dardar? hais..if i don pick a quarrel wid her..maybe we would be more happy..but Y DO I ALWIZ PICK A QUARREL WID HER? so stupid of mi rite?IM STUPID..hais..den actually plan to go out wid meimei de..n cos becos of tis..i told my meimei sae todae cant make it..hais..sorri mei..

later in the day..went to novena to look for dardar..n guess wad?i took one hour jus to travel there..sian..n guess wad?im dammed suai la..took the 14..so fucking hot la..plus the tv mobile is off la..den whole bus lyk so dammed quiet..lyk a dead bus liddat lo..sian..wan slp..cant slp..wan watch show..cant watch..hais..msg dardar..but no reply..more sian..hais..den actually suppose to meet dardar de mei to go out de..but her mei sae she dowan be lightbulb..so dowan join us..she found her frienz to go out wid..so din join us lo..after tt..mi n dardar went to orchard..shop awhile..den went to dardar's mum de shop..actually plan to eat finish dinner den go upstair do our oopg de..but we din do it after all..after dinner alrd 7plus le..plus irene call..sth happen la..den we rush down to paya lebar to find her..took cab somemore..n the uncle cheat our money la..i rmb taking frm tiong to dardar hse onli cost ard 50-70 cent plus normal charge la..but cb..the uncle charge ur 1.80 more plus normal charge..na bei..but guess wad..when we go down..the 2 of them ok liao..sian 1/2..den after roy n irene had their dinner..cos i dowan too late go home..so we went up to roy shi guan to play mahjong..den everyone of us at least won 2round except irene..din won a single round..poor irene..lolx..but we oso poor tink la..she nvr win..we cant go..lolx..but in the end..she still nvr win..lolx..so after tt..we each took our own transport home la..

when i reach home..my mumy start kau bei kau bu..cb..tt's wad tt make mi most du lan..sae wad if i go out late tis sun..i next sun can 4get about goin out late liao..knn..u might as well ask mi go die..hello..im 17..goin 18 soon le lei..i cant even do wad i wan mahx?cb..i wan hav my own freedom..i wanna be lyk wad other teenages is..tis is my once in a lifetime youth lei..knn..u don hav ur youth..but i wan mine..u got no rights to steal mine?don force mi to my limit..i tell u..i wanna be lyk other teenages hu can stay out late..i wanna do wad other teenages is doin..can't i?my frienz all can stay late..but i cant..everytime when they wanna stay late..i told them i cant..den becos not enough ppl..all go home..is lyk..im spoiling the fun for everyone lo..hais..but u tink i wan mehz?i dowan too..u noe?i wanna stay out late too..but i can't..i don hav a choice..hais..i noe parent wanna care about they child alot..but they shd oso noe tt..teenages will rebel..the more u control them..the more they wanna rebel..if u loosen ur control abit..maybe they wun rebel tt much..do they even realize tis?hais..sometime i realli wish i could die now..n hopefully someone c wad i write here..make it a warning to my parent n all the parent out there..GAVE UR CHILD SOME FREEDOM..BEFORE THEY DO SOMETHING TT WILL MAKE U LOSE THEM FOREVER..N TILL THEN..DON REGRET..COS IT'S U, PARENT HU FORCE THEM TO TAKE THE STEP THEY TAKE........................

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-22T11:40:00.000+08:00

ok..todae had a boring day at home..hais..dardar went out wid irene to look for job..so here im..rotting at home..sian..was so happy tt dardar kept her promise of msging mi every hour at first..first msg did kept to one hour..second msg..1.5hour..third msg??? 2hours later..hais..dunno wad to say..shd i be happy tt she did try to kept her promise or shd i be sad becos she did kept the promise?hais..guess i shdn't ask too much frm her ba..at least she try to..din she? =(
did not reply her msg jus now..cos i realli dunno wad i shd sae..and till now..still nth frm her..hais..shd i call her?shd i not?argh! fan la..

dunno wad to sae liao..blog next time ba..bye! hope the next time i blog..wud be sth happy =D

2006-12-18T15:39:00.000+08:00

2006-12-18T15:32:00.000+08:00

hahaz..jus realise that in another 30min or so..i hav not past for 10days..!!! omg..hmm..shall post now..hee..
ok..let's c wad's are some of the major issue..hmmm.... o.O
matter 1: had a big quarrel..sorri dardar tt i make u feel tt i restrict u too much..realli sorri..i onli did that becos i care abt u..becos i love u..realli hope u understand..but im glad we r fine now..our love even stronger than before..hee..love u lots dardar =D
matter 2: my bro n my good frienz quarrel..hais..tink they 2 still nvr get tinks work out..hais..dunno wad to do oso..c them liddat..i feel so sad..hais..jus hope tinks between them get better soon..
matter 3: needa get some sleep n chiong assignment soon..!!! NO TIME LIAO..!!!
matter 4: jobless again..sian..i wan get a job..!!!
hahaz..ok la..dunno wad to post le..when i tot of it..den i post ba..hee..ani wae..will be uploading soem photo of mi n dardar soon..watch out for it..hee =D

2006-12-08T17:15:00.000+08:00

haiz..another sad day..
early in the day..dardar 4get wad i sae last nite..haiz
after tt..dardar at wds onli care abt her youtube show..din even bother to reply mi when she c my msg..haiz
when goin home, i ask her hu msg her..she jus reply "nth"..haiz..if there is nth to hide..can't u tell mi?haiz
den todae when she on bus..she nvr call mi when i ask her to..haiz..so sad
haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz
4get it la..i shall not restrict wad u do from todae onwards..since tt will onli make mi n u more sad n angry..do wadeva u wan ba..i gave u the trust again..jus hope u don broke it again..u noe wad i like n don like..if u wanna continue doin wad i dislike..den i oso got nth to sae ba..i try my best..haiz

2006-12-07T12:58:00.000+08:00

hmm..tis post is written while toking to dardar..........
2 tink tt a couple SHD do..

CONCENTRATE WHILE TOKING TO THE ONE YOU LOVE(even if it mean partial heart)
TRY UR BEST TO GRANT THE WISH OF UR LOVE ONE

hais..dunno wad to say liao..tired and wear out..Zzzzzzz

2006-12-05T02:36:00.000+08:00

hmm..let's post abt last 2 days ba..
sat: met dardar at her mummy shop at noon..den went to her hse cos she 4get to take her ring..hahaz..den went to tiong for lunch while waiting for serene..so went to eat mac..had mcspicy..yummy..so nice..hee..after tt..cos still early ma..so we went to walk walk at tiong..went to comics connection..saw a veri nice pair of hp strap..a pair of dolphin..hee..so we bought it..one for her..one for mi..hee..after tt..we went over to expo..waited for roy..irene and serene..so long lo..hahaz..den spent abt 3hours at IT fair..but i din manage to walk all la..sian..after tt..we went to marina south for steamboat..but cos zhen fa alot of ppl..so we waited quite awhile lo..sian..n finally, we found a place to sit..den went to take food..took alot of the fried rice and noodle..so nice..hahaz..ate till ard 9+..went to billard centre to play billard..i lousy liao..sian..hahaz..play till goin 11..den faster go home liao..hahaz..when i change train..i jus sit down nia..den opp got one aunty vomit..cb..dammed eeew la..den i faster change sit..smelly la..den had some slp on the train..alight at tanah merah..jus nice..i come out of the station..my bus come..hee..den went home le..watch awhile tv..den went to slp le..hahaz
sun: nth much happen tt day..went to library to do my assignment..den went to bugis street to buy shirt..hee..got one more new shirt..keke..k la..nth much to post oso..shall post another day..cya =D

2006-12-02T16:27:00.000+08:00

wad a bad day todae..todae is jus not my day la..early in the morning dardar wanted to broke her promise of coming to my hse..but then she did come la..den after tt..took my pay..went to the market buy some stationary for dardar den go eat lunch wid dardar..den while eating..somehow dardar sae sth tt broke my heart la..can't exactly tell wad issit..but jus felt my heart veri de pain..hais..den after tt..no mood la..went to the library..dardar jus bz wid her book..den i there walking ard alone la..den ard 1.30, send dardar to sch..den i went home..after dardar dismiss..she msg mi a few..den went to slp on the bus la..hais..den when she alight..we chat again la..den reach home le..we quarrel la..hais..tt was 6plus..quarrel till 8plus..hais..so sad..my heart so pain..den at the wedding dinner..all the food sux la..either too plain or too salty..screw my shark fin wid too much vinegar oso la..sian 1/2..den while having dinner..msg dardar a few la..den dardar nvr reply a few of my msg lo..reason is becos she chatting wid irene..hais..maybe next time if i chatting wid other ppl..i shd nt reply her msg..c how she feel..hais..well, tt's onli say say nia la..i noe i cant bear to do it de..hais..wad can i do wid her weakness?jus hav to get use to it n get over it ba..tired of keep quarreling le..i can sae alot alot..but if she herself don bother to improve on it..i oso cant do ani tink de..she not happy wid mi..oso dowan sae..wan keep everything to herself..is telling some1 esp ur dardar tt u r not happy tt difficult?well, i did it..but did u?hais..jus let fate decide our relationship ba..if we were meant to last..we will last..tt's wad i believe la..
Lesson learnt of the day: nvr eva promise some1 ni tink when u could not do it..n once u hav promise it..make sure u do it..if u don..sth bad jus gonna happen..maybe now, maybe tml..maybe ani time..rmb tis =D

2006-11-29T15:47:00.000+08:00

let's c..when was the last time i post?hmm...22nov!!! lolx..ok..6days..30min more to 1week..lolx..hao la..shall post now..
hmm..tis few day alot of tink happen la..
sat: went to dardar hse..den left for vivocity..finally finish walking whole of vivo..hahaz..
sunday: dardar come my hse do project..but some unhappy tink happen tt day la..was meeting yi jian n nic..but b4 meeting them..we went to nlb to do some research..while walking there..i suddenly felt mi n dardar lyk stranger liddat..along the way..we nvr hold hand..nvr tok..hais..
monday:nth much happen tt day
today: went to sch as usual..den dardar suddenly tell mi she goin study wid a guy tml..hais..she knew i don lyk tt..but she still did tt..hais..dunno wad she tinking oso..nvm ba..let her go lo..do i hav a choice?hahaz..4get it la..let tink take its place..if she meant to be mine..she will be mine la..hahaz..den early in the morning den noe all playing bball todae..n guess wad?i was not inform?ha..4get it ba..tis class simply sux..dunno how to organize tinks de..hais..how pathetic of mi to be in tis class..lol..den after dcnk..we took a bus to the grand cathay..den on the way..dardar say i treat her lyk a toy..my heart broke..hais..4get it la..hais..went to catch happy feet..not bad la..the show..after tt..went to heeren to eat wanton mee..den went over to suntec to collect my pay..dammed little la..onli 203buck nia..hais..after tt..after send dardar up on bus..i oso went home..reach home le..lie on my bed to slp..actually plan to slp till 6.30 de..but ended up sleeping till 7plus..n tt's still becos dardar call mi..hais..den now?mood abit de not gd la..stress up la..everything oso wan test..everything came crushing down on mi..hais..so breathless now..hais
hao ba..still veri tired..goin slp soon le..blog again some other time ba..cya..nitez

love dardar lots..muackz

2006-11-23T02:28:00.000+08:00

woo..jus realize tt i hav post 50times le..lolx..so proud of myself..first blog tt tahan so long..keke
ok..ytd left sch at 10am..went to the grand cathay to brought tickets for step up..n cos we got the buy one get one free de ticket..we onli pay for one ticket..hee..after buying the ticket..we went to plaza singapura to eat ljs..but we btoh din finish the food..hahaz..den c dardar abit de headache..my heart pain..hais..after tt..cos we no place to go..so we went to orchard library cos i wanna do my dcnk tut..den dardar there reading her book..den after tt..she feel better le..hee..den went back to the grand cathay to watch Step Up..dammed funny sia..hee..n dardar CRY too..wahahahaha..den after tt..cos still early..we went to national library..wanted to go study de..but cos i too tired liao..ended up sleeping..but wid dardar disturbing mi..humph..lolx..after tt..send dardar home..n by the time i reach home..is 8plus le..hahaz..bath n eat my dinner..9.30..den went to do my iiso..n waited for dardar to come online..chatted wid her awhile..den i call her..we chatted till 12.30..hee..chatted for almost 1.5hours..hee..
love dardar lots..
dardar RMB: no matter wad..i will alwiz love u..n i will not eva leave u..i jus love u lots..muackz

2006-11-22T01:42:00.000+08:00

hais..had a moody morning..woke up late in the morning..den rush here rush there..wanna get money frm my mum to top up my ez-link..den she there kb..hais..after tt..went to bus stop to wait for bus..but waited kinda long for the bus..n wheneva this happen..some bad gonna happen tt day..n it realli did..reach sch le..had breakfast wid dardar..den went up to outside LT to sit sit n eat nugget..den cos i hand itchy la..use the stick to make dardar de hair..den she angry wid mi..sob..sian..suppose to be in LT now..but where im now lei?in the lab..hais..no mood to study le..ltr still goin out wid dardar..dunno if she still angry wid mi mahx..hais..sian..sob..wad my hand so itchy?if i nvr do tt..nth wud hav happen le mahx..hais..wad an idiotic mi..hais.......

2006-11-21T08:30:00.000+08:00

wad a day..sian..early in the morning meet dardar..den go sch..dardar faster faster wan go in lab..but i don let her go..bleahz..den after she go in..i go find a lab to print the hoop notes..den after tt..i went to library to wait for my dcnk grp member..after they come le..discuss for some time..den 12 le..waited awhile for dardar to dismiss..den sat at concourse awhile to do some editing to my file for the hoop lab..after tt..went to inter market for lunch..den took bus 9 to the market near my hse to buy some stuff..den go home..den i hold dardar hand and walk up to my mum..happy ba..dar?hee..after putting the stuff at home..went back to sch wid dardar..den now at wds lab lo..doin nth..sian

ok..now for some unhappy stuff la..early in the morning alrd not veri happy liao..wanna dardar to pei mi till the teacher come..but she keep on lyk wan go in..she wid mi..but her heart is not..hais..den when walking to my hse..i c dardar so tired..den ask her sit down..wanna her to sit longer..but she keep on insist tt go my hse den rest..den finally..i gave in..walk over to my hse..but reach le..dardar dowan go in..hais..last tink..did not wan dardar to slp on bus de..but she is awake but inside her..she is asleep..den i gave up la..let her slp lo..whole journey not feeling veri well..having headache..hais..

nvm ba..let's c wad will happen next la..todae mood alrd not veri de gd liao..no harm another sad tink again..hais =(

pardon mi for being selfish..for no matter how long im wid u..the time will nvr eva be enough..love u lots dardar..muackz

2006-11-20T05:20:00.000+08:00

hee..back to blog again..hee..

ytd woke up early..cos meeting dardar at 10..den i woke up at 8..prepare my tink..den left hse at 8.30..to take bus 12..n becos of tt..i reach dammed early la..sian..wondering abt..den finally..dardar came..hee..n cos i abit de hungry..so we went to the market behind the bugis village to ea nasi lemak..but sux la..not nice..shd hav ate the one behind..100times nicer lo..n cheaper lo..lolx..after tt..we went to national library to study dcnk..n cos i lazy take out my book..so i hug dardar n at the same time..share her book..hee..n cos i scare dardar not unerstand..so i keep asking dardar to explain to mi wad the slide is toking abt..hee..i promise we must move on together..not letting the other behind..rite?hee..n cos we play while studying..so we ended up spending abt 1+hour jus goin thru one chpt?lolx..den rest awhile..den study till 2plus..den we decide to go suntec to walk walk while waiting for irene n roy to finish eating..

den went to buy mua chi at happy kids there for dardar..n i brought a taiwan sussage..both our favourite food..hee..den cos happy kids no space..so we walk ard while eating lo..den went to find logan awhile..den went back to happy kids..den cos i abit de tired..so i lie on dardar's lap to slp..so comfortable..keke..den after tt..dardar sae she tired..so let her lie awhile..den irene they all come le..so no choice..hav to go liao..hahaz..

after tt..we went over to marina..cos irene wanna collect her shoe..but cos haven come..den hav to collect it at cini..so no choice..went back to suntec..took 14 to dohby ghaut..brought the movie ticket at the grand cathay..show at 7.20..still got some time..so we go over to cini..irene collected her shoe..den cos we no place to go..so we went up to the arcade to play..roy play sega rally n daytona la..den the rest of us watch..hahaz..as time is reaching 7.20 soon..so mi n dardar brought shroom meal each to eat..abit de hungry den..n cos dardar hungry..so i let her eat first..dardar open the whip potato..den the gravy so little..hahaz..den when i open mine..so mani..wahahaha..den dardar so jealous..bleahz..but i noe dardar lyk to it la..so i scoop a few scoop wid alot alot of gravy to feed her..hee..den when we reach the cathay le..brought our stuff..jus nice can go in..hee..den waited for the show to start..the show was worth it la..realli scary..but abit de regret bring dardar go watch la..cos too er xin n horror le..make dardar there keep trembled..hais..den c dardar liddat..veri de heartpain..so no choice..took a cab n send dardar home..whole journey on cab..hold dardar tight tight..trying my best to make her calm down..

den finally dardar reach home le..so i go home oso lo..den whole journey..dardar pei mi chat..so swt of her..hee..den i reach home le..go bath..after dinner..call dardar back..but she sae she haven bath..too scare to bath..hais..shd not hav brought her to watch tt show..make her so scare..hais..stupid of mi..-hais-
but phew..dardar ok todae le..hee..

weemeng love vivien 1314..muackz

2006-11-17T15:14:00.000+08:00

Fault in a relationship:

lack of confident
lack of trust
not sweet enough
not romantic enough
hanging too much wid opposite sex
when wid frienz, the other party is lonely
hiding too much tink frm each other
jealousy
attitude

Points to take note:

pay attention when the other one is toking
every word u speak mean alot to him/her(can hurt or can make the other party feel very happy
try ur best to make the other party happy..as long as he/she lyk it
love ur bf/gf lyk nobody else
put ur bf/gf first in ur heart
nvr hang out too much wid the opposite sex
nvr leave him/her alone
be open to each other..no hiding
nvr be too jealous
sa jiao is gd..but not too much
nvr ignore ur bg/gf for more than 30sec

Remember, the most important is....love ur gf/bf..don take it for granted..they r wid u becos they realli love u..cherish them b4 u lost them completely..

dardar..i love u and i wanna be wid u 4ever n ever..muackz

2006-11-17T02:54:00.000+08:00

hmm..since dardar everytime 4get post tink abt us..i shall not post abt us too..hee..jus kidding..bleahz..okok..start posting liao la..em..shall not post everything..jus some more special one will do..hee..hmm..cos ytd i lost dardar's sis de hair clip..den dardar veri sad..hais..den i decide to skip cmsk to pei dardar go buy a new one..went to inter..took 196..was playing wid dardar on the bus..but dardar dowan play wid mi..humph =P
after tt..lucky parkway got sell the clip..phew..hee..den shop there for a while..den rush back to sch for the bball match..but cos i c dardar veri tired..so decide to send her to take the bus..let her go home rest first..hee..the match was a gd one..tot we lost..but at least everyone did our best..hee..after tt..force dardar to pei mi chat till i reach home..keke..n so good of dardar to pei mi chat too...hee..after tt..call dardar at ard 11..but she too into her show le..nvr chat..den after show end..she sae she wanna slp!!! lol..den i let her slp lo..hee..
dardar..i love u lots wor..don eva let go of mi..kk?muackz

2006-11-14T01:48:00.000+08:00

hmm..past 2day was realli veri moody..dunno y oso..alwiz quarrel wid dardar over small small matter..hais..y m i doin tis?dardar..not sae u don love mi..but...let mi hav a bigger space in ur heart..hao mahx?my heart realli broke when u could not ans mi the question.."if u were to choose bf n frienz..which will u choose?" my heart totally broke..i alwiz tot u wud chose mi..but then..it prove tt im wrong..hais..do i realli hav to not be wid u so often so that u wud treasure mi when we hav time together?do we realli hav to go to tt extend?sob..i cant do it..i realli can't..i realli wanna be wid u every min..every sec..but each time i try to be wid u more..u seems to be further away frm mi..is wad im doin wrong?my heart is shattered..will u mend it back for mi?all i wanna frm u is abit more de love n cherish..can i?
我说我会爱你。。就会爱你一辈子
WEEMENG LOVE VIVIEN 1314

2006-11-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

hmm..let's c wad happen todae..onli day tt had lesson at 12..can slp longer..hee..reply dardar's msg at 9.30..den woke up to do my stuff..left hse at 10.20..cos meeting dardar at 11 for breakfast..hee..met dardar at baywater condo tt bus stop..but when dardar alight, she sae she having headache..so hearbreak..hais..went to inter..had nasi lemak..lucky dardar headache getting better le..hee..den went back to sch..had iiso..the lecturer sux..dunno how to teach..teach so fast..hello..we not machine..cant process so fast..alright?den finally..the lesson end..went to bball court to play bball..skill sux liao..no stamina oso..sian..how to play match next week sia..kau..den after the game..went for lesson..boring lesson..den lesson finally end le..met dardar..took 69 den change to 65..wanted to go help mummy take meimei de book de..but cos dunno where to alight..so overshot the bus stop..n cos raining..so did not alight..took all the wae to orchard to take mrt back to bugis cos dardar meeting her jiejie for shopping..n cos we reach early..went to bugis to had my lunch..n did a little while of shopping..den went to station to wait for her jiejie..but dardar did not wan mi to pei her wait..force mi to go home..so no choice..went home lo..when i reach home..dardar msg mi..hee..so happy..she kept her promise..every one hour or so..dardar will msg mi..hee..so happy..thx dardar for making tinks come true..love u lots..but some unhappy tinks happen too..
*to devil..devil2nd..angel and to everyone out there*
dunno y..nowaday got more n more ppl eat le nth better to do..went blog hopping n trying to break couple up..shou bu liao..make ur life meaningful can anot?do sth healthier can anot?do sth like goin exercise or concentrating more on ur study can anot?i realli dowan waste time on u all..i wanna concentrate on my study n my dardar..can stop disturbing us anot?wad we do is our business..not urs..rite?if u all r jealous abt how we r..get a gf/bf urself(if u can)..n stop disturbing us..hao mahx?we jus wanna led a peaceful life..a life wid onli mi n her..n frienz hu realli treasure us as frienz..we don interfere wid ur life..so stop interfering ours..can ma?i realli thx u all for tt
*to dardar*
we had been together for quite sometime le..tot during tis period..alot of tinks happen..but each time..we will be alright veri fast..i noe im asking alot frm u..but u alwiz give in to mi..everytime i wish u were there for mi..u alwiz did..everytime when im wid u..i feel love..i feel happy..i feel comfortable..thx dardar..i realli appreciate wad u did..i love u..n i will nvr eva let go of u..don eva let go of mi..ok?love u lots lots lots..muackz mauckz muackz

2006-11-09T08:26:00.000+08:00

hmm..now at cmsk class..teacher not here yet..so can blog..but even if teacher here..i oso wun care so much..hahaz..so sleepy now..em..let's tok abt ytd ba..went out wid my classmate..went to eat ichiban boshi..jap food..the food still ok la..but ate till veri de full..cos hav alot of wasabi..lolx..cos play "zhong ji mi ma"..den dardar tio first..n dardar cant stand hot stuff..so i help her eat the wasabi..my first time eating tt..still ok la..nt tt bad..hahaz..ate till i veri de "zhang" cos drank alot of water..8big cup lei..hahaz..after tt..went to watch the grudge 2..den jack keep scare weiting when he himself is scare oso..but was so funny..hahaz..after tt..dardar n mi went to national library to study for awhile..after tt..went to suntec for awhile..den go home..now in class..miss dardar so much..hee
*dardar: thx for writing ur blog till so sweet..hee..love u alot alot..muackz

2006-11-06T14:49:00.000+08:00

FROM TIS MOMENT

I do swear..that I'll always be there...

I'd give anything and everything and I will always care

Trouhg weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,

For better for worse, I will love you

With every beat of my heart

From this moment...life has begun

From this moment...your are the one

Right beside you is where i belong

From this moment on

From this moment...i have been blessed

I live only for your happiness

And for your love i'd give my last breath

From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart

Can't wait to live my life with you can't wait to start

You and i will never be apart

My dreams came true because of you

From this moment...as long as i live

I will love you...i promise you this

There is nothing...i wouldn't give

From this moment on

Oh oh

You're the reason i believe in love

And you're the answer to my prayers from up above

All we need is just the two of us

My dreams...came true...because of you

From...this...moment as long as I live

I will love you, i promise you this

There is nothing i wouldn't give

From this moment

I will love you as long as i live

From this moment on

2006-11-06T14:39:00.000+08:00

hmm..spend whole day celebrating 2mth anniversary wid dardar..hee..met dardar at 9plus tis morning..went to cut my hair..now feel so gd..can spike again! hee..after cutting my hair..we took a train to dohby ghaut..went to the grand cathay to buy ticket for DOA..den went to heeren cos dardar wanna buy a little bag..hahaz..after tt..cos we at heeren le..so we might as well eat the wanton mee inside heeren..not bad..the fried wanton is veri nice..hee..after tt..we went to taka..went to cold storage to find dardar de ex dept manager..they chatted awhile..den we went to far east..brought couple ring..so nice..hee..after tt..we went back to the grand cathay for the movie..the movie was so short lo..1plus hour nia..but it was a nice show la..hee..after the show..we went to lavender to walk walk..b4 we went to bugis..brought a shirt at bugis street..hee..dardar encourage mi to buy de..hee..after buying the shirt..we went over to parco to hav pasta mania..wasted money on the soup lo..it totally sux..so stupid..but nvm..we had lots of laughter there..so funny..hee..todae was realli a veri happy day for mi..hope it was for u too..dardar..i love u lots..promise to hold ur hand tight n be wid u my whole life..u r the destined one for mi..m i too?hee..miss ya lots now wor..muackz

2006-11-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

DARDAR, HAPPY 2MTH ANNVIERSARY!!! love u lots..muackz

2006-11-04T15:10:00.000+08:00

hmm..sad tinks r not worth posting..so i shall not post..
lesson learnt todae: let beyond be beyond..
hais..i try to do tt..but can i?i try my best to 4get..i try my best to trust u..but can i?i try veri hard to 4get le..but u brought my fear up again..i try my best to trust u..but u broke it..can i still do it once more?can i 4get it n trust u once again?pls dar..gave mi the confident to trust u again..n don bring up my memory again..hao mahx?don bring up my fear..my fear of losing u..i dunno if i will lose u..i dunno when i will lose u?i assure u tt i will keep u by my side 4ever..but will u?u left mi hanging in the air..will u eva tell mi tt u don wanna lose mi too?or are u still nt confident of it?do u hav the faith in tis relationship lyk how i hav faith in it?somehow, somewhat..i wish i cud hug u tis veri moment..i miss u so much so much..

2006-11-04T08:54:00.000+08:00

SHE CHOSE FRIEND
ha..so great

2006-11-04T04:24:00.000+08:00

had a fuck up morning todae..argh! wad a morning..completely spoil..kau..wad r frienz?frienz r jus a bunch of fuckers..i don need frienz..y do i even need frienz when they don even know wad frienz are?ironic rite?sian la..early morning spoil my mood..kau..jus wish im not here in tis world at all..hais..but luckily still got dardar by mi..if not..i realli feel lyk jumping down a building..don wish to live in tis fuck up world..everything in tis world is fake..jus so fake..living in tis world is lyk a illusion..if ppl don know wad frienz ah..don make frienz..cos they r not even fit to hav frienz..hais..bye for now..no mood to write liao..ani wae..still love dardar alot alot..muackz

2006-11-03T14:43:00.000+08:00

todae is goin to end soon le..another 1.5hour..todae was a fun day..woke up at 6.30 in the morning..seem early ba?but actually i had alrd overslept for 30min le..lolx..den faster prepare..den go out le..todae dardar de bus reach dammed early..dunno y..i jus leaving hse..dardar goin reach le..hahaz..den dardar hav to wait for mi..hee..den at bus stop..c serene..den drag her into sch oso..hehe..after tt..had 3hours of boredom..sian..den break for an hour..den dardar break le..went to mensa to hav lunch..had chicken chop..not bad..hahaz..den went for lec..it was dammed boring..went off after dcnk..cos dardar n mi gonna fall asleep le..hahaz..den we went to national library to slp n study awhile la..after tt..went to bugis street to shop..den went to suntec..walk for awhile..sat at mac to use laptop..den dardar so clever..finish almost 70% of my fries..lolx..nvm..went to buy one more pkt of fries again..so yummy..hehe..as expected..todae was a fun n swt day too..everyday wid dardar is swt la..hehe..love u lots dardar..3more days to 2mth le wor..excited?hee..love u lots..muackz

2006-11-03T01:33:00.000+08:00

another day past..can c dardar todae again..hee..now in class..doin nth..so boring..miss dardar so much..hao xiang ba ta jin jin de bao zai wo de huai li..love her so much..muackz..
dardar 4ever de so cute n adorable..hehe..so happy i found her..if not for her..i cant imagine wad life wud be now..i promise i will hao hao de treasure n cherish her..dardar..noe y i love u so much?it's becos i noe u realli love mi frm ur heart..in front of u..i can be myself..i hav nth to hide..happy..i can share wid u..unhappy..i can tell u..n u will alwiz be there to hear..jus wanna u to be my little princess in my whole life..love u till eternity..muackz

2006-11-02T02:41:00.000+08:00

hmm..another day again..now at HOOP class..so boring..let's post ytd stuff for now ba..ytd came to sch for dcnk lec..after dnck lec..cos dardar n mi no cmaths book..so we skip it..n went to canteen for breakfast..but cos dardar not feeling well..so i decided to send her home..hee..took 65 wid her..den send her all the wae back home..c her so xin ku..my heart so pain..sob..after tt..i went to orchard to look for anniversary present..kanna cheated by tt aunty..argh..sian..den after tt..i went home..ate my lunch..den slp..so tired ytd..den dardar msg mi..but it was when she reach pearl centre lo..tt was ard 5plus..hais..beginning of sadness..hais..den for the next 5hour..she nvr msg mi lo..!!! so angry..sad n disappointed..hais..was waiting n waiting for her to msg mi..but she nvr..hais..so sad..den it was onli when i msg her..den she reply mi lo..wad a day..den we msg awhile..den nvr msg le..cos i completely no mood..den after tt..dardar call mi..den we chatted awhile lo..when she call..i can't bear to be angry wid her le..hee..but we r ok now le..hee..
dardar..all i ask is abit more of concern..abit more of attention..abit more of care..abit more of love..can i?love u lots dardar..jus wanna hold ur hand 4ever n ever..muackz

2006-10-31T15:01:00.000+08:00

hmm..another day had past..miss dardar so much..em..shall not post the event for todae..but wanna tell dardar sth right frm my heart..dardar..i realli veri scare to lose u..u noe?everytime quarrel wid u..so scare tt u will leave mi..6more day to 2mth..n one more mth to 3mth..so scare sth bad wud happen third mth onward..realli dowan to tink wad might happen..jus hope we will past it together..every min n sec i spend wid u..i feel so fortunate..i noe im wid some1 whom i can tell my heart out..whom love mi..everyday wid u is so happy n sweet..dardar..im glad i found u..i promise i will cherish u lots cos i noe i will nvr find some1 tt love mi as much as u do..u make mi feel xin fu everyday..ani wae..u noe mahx?i realli love the way u hug mi..it's a feeling which i dunno how to describe..jus too heavenly..so hug mi more..yea?hee..i dunno if u like the way i kiss n hug u..i simply love hugging n kissing u becos for every kiss n hug tt i gave u, meant tt i love u more n more each second..jus wanna be wid u tis life..n i wanna u to be my last gf..jus wanna hold ur hand till the day im old..till the day i die..
when i sae i miss u..i jus wish tt i cud c u the next moment
n when i sae i love u, i meant it..
some ppl tell mi.."don sae i miss u when u don..don sae i love u..when ur heart is actually somewhere else"
dardar..now im jus gonna tell u..I MISS U N I LOVE U..muackz

2006-10-29T14:02:00.000+08:00

hmm..tis morning went to suntec to find yi jian..den went to hav lunch wid irene..yi jian n nic at suntec de food court..had chicken chop..so nice..hee..den while eating lunch..chatted wid dardar for awhile..den she go back to work le..sian..after finish lunch..send irene to city hall mrt..den mi, yi jian and nic went to bugis..walk ard bugis junction for awhile..den went to mac to study..we study till 4.10, den cos there meet till amaryllias..n she was realli too noisy..we went to novena earlier..cos dardar sae she miss mi..n i miss her too la..so went over to find her lo..n expected..we reach too early..so we went to walk ard united sq..nth much actually..den after awhile..dardar break le..but it was nth much..she sae miss mi..but i don feel the miss in her..hais..sad..den after she went back to work le, we took a train to orchard..had kfc there..den went to heeren n cineleisure to walk walk..den after tt..cos quite late le..so we went home..now at home le..waiting for dardar to call..but she din..hais..onli after i msg her..den i receive her msg..dunno issit she receive my msg le..den send tt msg..or send tt msg le..den receive my msg..hais..she nvr charge her hp again!!! sian..wanna chat wid her de..but she nvr charge her fone again..realli sad la =S
dowan post liao la..no mood le..................

2006-10-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

hmm..went out wid dardar ytd..so happy..hee..after class..went to bedok interchange to eat fishball noodle..stupid aunty..put so much chilli..made the noodle hot lyk siao..sian..den after tt..went to suntec to collect my pay..tot not all the pay out la..nvm..at least i got bit of money now le..hee..went to cheque in..den went over to marina sq to buy movie ticket for "death note"..hee..cos the show start at 6.50, so we went to walk walk ard..did some window shopping at marina b4 goin over to suntec..hahaz..went to suntec..den the customer service counter de ppl help mi charge my laptop n let mi put my bag at the counter..so good!!! hee..den after tt..went to tasty treat to walk walk..same old tink..den we decide to go e-life..so big..but onli minority of the shop open nia..nth much de..hahaz..ytd eat till dardar so full..hahaz..had french fries n coke at marina sq de mac..den had cookie n otah at tasty treatz..den a big coke in the cinema..den a susuage at tasty treatz after the movie too..hahaz..death note was nice..tot it doesn't hav an ending..lolx..well..jus hav to wait for the second epsiode to come out ba..lolx..ani wae..tt "L" inside tt show realli looks lyk a cat..lolx..den after having tt susuage..send dardar to the bus stop..cos too late liao..cant send her home..if not tio kan by parent again..sian..ok..enough of happy tink..now for sth sad..dardar was on the fone wid irene then..den at some pt of time..she wud push mi away..hais..wad issit tt i can't hear?din we agree on no secret between the 2 of us?kinda disappointed la..shuan le..since she cant be clear between the 2 of us..i wun force her..tt's jus not my style of doin tink..
hmm..todae dardar work frm 9-10..gonna miss her lots..she work 33hours tis week lo..hais..c her so tired..realli make my heart break..hais..nvm..next sun dardar gonna pei mi..our special day..hee..love ya lots dardar..muackz..

2006-10-27T11:57:00.000+08:00

hmm..a tiring day todae nehz..had lesson at 9 todae again..so tired..den while goin to sch..my "dog" drop..sob..gone in the bus..hais..my "dog"!!!! sian..had oopg in the morning..was so boring..den waited dardar for one hour..dardar break le..hee..went to business school for lunch..i had chicken chop for lunch while dardar had chicken cutlet wid curry sauce..dardar ate till she feel veri hot in the mouth..lolx..den after tt..we went to the bookshop to buy some stuff..den bought dardar water to drink too..hahaz..after tt, 4hours of lec..so wu liao..slept for the whole 4hours..tot cant realli slp..lolx..4hours past..finally...send dardar till orchard there..den i change bus home..cant send her home..if not i dunno wad time den reach home le..hee..now at home liao..miss dardar so much..tml goin watch death note wid dardar..finally..hahaz..hope tml wud be a better day wor..hee..love dardar lots lots..muackz

2006-10-26T13:12:00.000+08:00

hais..y is everyone in this world wearing a mask?i feel i cant trust ani1 in tis world except dardar..tt's such a sad tink to noe..sob..miss-ing dardar more n more each day..realli can't live w/o her..SHE'S MY LIFE..hee..every parting wid u is so hard..can't bear to part wid u..jus wanna be wid u every min..every sec..love u lots..muackz
todae tot cant meet dardar till 6 de..but in the end..we meet more than expected..hee..i skip my iiso to pei her..n dardar skip cmsk3 to pei mi..in the end?we were together for 4hours..hee..yea..tml after lunch..can be wid dardar for 4hours again..4hours of lecture..hahaz..hope mi n dardar study hard hard..n be in the same class next yr..hee..
now at home le..waiting for dardar to call..hee..

2006-10-25T08:30:00.000+08:00

back to blog again..been sleeping for 12hours todae..realli dammed tired man..hais..hmm..dardar working 13hours todae..sian..so heartbreak to c her so tired sia..hais..dardar goin fall sick liao..sob..must hao hao de take care wor dear..every sec..every min tt din c u..i miss u more..still got 8yrs more ah..hais..so long..hais..jus had to wait ba..i guess..love u lots..muackz

had been thinking..y ppl alwiz change to suit other ppl?y must we change to suit other ppl?don u ppl find it veri tiring?ppl sae the way i speak got attitude..the way i dress, the way i look sux..don lyk tis..don lyk tt..life itself is veri tiring le..n y must i still change to suit u ppl?i don own ppl ani tink..if u don lyk mi..den fuck off..i don wish to face ppl wid a fake face..jus sae tt u don lyk mi..n fuck out of my life..tt's all..i hav alwiz been true to ppl..but wad ppl do?simply jus took advantage of mi..kau..frienz?haha..jus another bunch of ppl in tis world..come n go as they wish..
shuan le ba..be frienz wid mi ONLI if u r true to mi..if not..fuck out of my life..

2006-10-20T14:49:00.000+08:00

so heartbreak tt they force dardar to stay in sch till so late..somemore is not by the instructor..but by some freaking idiots..realli wonder if they hav brain anot?so late go home=late slp=no energy..how to perform well w/o energy?fuck up by them la..dardar so tired le..having headache liao..still make her stay till so late..lucky she had bus home lo..if not i dunno wad might happen to her..tis few day dunno y xin qin so not gd oso..whole week if not is quarrel..is heart breaking stuff..hais..my heart hurt alot alot now..c dardar so tired..n yet i cant do ani tink..im such a useless asshole..how i wish im her..can suffer in place of her..

2006-10-20T13:25:00.000+08:00

went for a bbq ytd..whole nitez din slp..den early morning went to tiong n brought breakfast for dardar b4 sending her to sch..while on the way, i slp on her shoulder..realli too tired le..hope i din make ur shoulder ache..hee..after sending her to sch..i came home to rest..onli manage to catch an hour of slp..b4 i hav to go sch again..hais..time table out todae..dunno shd sae gd or not..manage to hav almost the same time table wid dardar..but everydae end so late..sian lo..den after briefing, dardar went back to her dance..den i went to meet irene..went wid her to do some shopping la..kinda tiring..too long nvr shop so long le..after much shopping, nitez le..so we went home..but cos irene took the wrong train to lavender(blur of her la..hehe)..we sat at lavender station to chat..den chat chat chat..we recall some of the sad stuff la..hais..den after tt..cos too late liao..i ask her go home..cos i needa go home too..if not mummy goin kb again le..
kinda sad mood now..dunno if i hav made the correct choice the other day la..although im unwillingly, but i hav no choice..dardar cant bear to let go..neither can i let dardar go..rite?the more i care for u..i felt myself getting sad over small small matter..hais..our third month coming soon le..kinda scare..realli hope u wud hold mi tight..n overcome every obstacles ahead of us..neither can we let go..dardar fone no batt again..hais..dunno wad time she goin reach home todae..dunno by the time she reach home, m i asleep not?sometime, i felt tt our distance getting more n more apart le..issit becos of the concert?realli hope so..concert is tml..hopefully after tml..u will hav more time for mi..miss ya lots..muackz

2006-10-19T11:50:00.000+08:00

back to blog agian..hee..
went out early to find dardar todae..realli felt lyk hugging her tight..ytd becos of jealousy, i hurt her alot alot..sorri dardar..after i met her, i settle some matter wid her..peacefully of cuz..n im glad we finally came to an decision..tot i dunno if i hav did the right tink..but still, i wanna trust her..trust tt her heart onli hav mi..n no other ppl..tot everytime a quarrel is painful n sad..but each time i felt tt i love her more..i learn to cherish her more..so afraid tt i will lose her..
todae send her to sch..den cos needa wait for her for quite some time..i went to take 33..to try the time taken to travel to tiong..n becos when i took to bras basah road..is alrd 45min, i realise tt it is too long..so i alight n take a bus back to inter n meet dardar in sch..but she suddenly last min sae she needa go training..cant meet mi..hais.but nvm la..i understand..cant blame her oso..den after her training..she call mi..sounding abit sad..den i ask her wad happen..her dancemate left her alone again..hais..she is sad..n yet i cant be wid her?hais..wad kind of stead m i..den after chatting awhile..she went back to the studio..n she sae she wanna rest..so hang up..hais..y did she reject my offer to pei her chat..at least she wun be so lonely..yyy?don understand..den i promise her tt i will be picking her up ltr de..but cos im staying overnight at the bbq..n scare i cant make it back..den i told her i cant accompany her home..did i make the right choice?hais..realli hope she don mind..but i promise i will call her at 10 sharp..wanna pei her chat till she reach home..den tml morning..goin find her..goin send her to sch..i promise..hao ba..post till here first..got time den post again..
dardar..trust mi..no matter wad happen..if u wanna mi by ur side..call mi..i will rush down the moment i can make it..n be there for u..don need to feel bad or wad..as long as im outside..i will rush down the moment u call..love u alot alot..miss u so much so much..muackz..ai ni 1314

2006-10-18T08:47:00.000+08:00

feel so much lyk crying now..seeing all those photo make mi feel more n more sad now..wad m i jealousing abt?is jus pictures..isn't it?wad m i being sad abt?i feel thousand n thousand of knife piercing into my heart..it hurt so much..i realli dunno wad to write..i realli dunno wad to do..wad do i do now?wad CAN i do now? =(
i shd not hav seen all those pic..so much feel lyk closing my eyes now n hope tt it was all a dreamz..but it isn't..it's reality..a reality tt i noe i cant run away frm..WAD SHD I DO NOW?my mind hao ruan hao ruan ah..hais.........................................................................................

2006-10-18T08:27:00.000+08:00

hmm..got nth to do todae..so boring..dardar at dance frm 7 in the morning to 9 in the night..hais..sometime c her so tired..realli make my heart hurt alot..wonder wad she is doin now..her last msg was 12.05pm..realli miss her alot alot..sob sob..jus hope after concert..she will hav more time for mi ba..time faster pass..faster 9pm..so i can chat wid her..hee..wonder tml will meet up wid her mahx..tml class oso got bbq..dunno wan go mahx..dardar not free in the night..so which mean tt if i go..i will be goin alone..sian..kinda left out by my grp of frienz le..go = boring..hais..sian la..tis few day jus isn't the day for mi..so fan..dunno wad to write liao oso..write till here ba..
DARDAR..I MISS U ALOT ALOT..muackz

2006-10-17T14:33:00.000+08:00

another day had pass..n TODAE is jus not the day for mi..hais..alot alot to sae..but simply jus doesn't hav the mood to sae..onli had one phrase tt i shd write it down to remind myself of.."if u can't get pass tis..u will NVR get close to her"
---> A DAY TT I DON WISH TO RMB

2006-10-16T14:30:00.000+08:00

hais..wad a day..waited for dardar for 5hour n wad turn out to be is onli sadness..sob sob..went ard for 5hours while waiting for dardar..ate at behind bugis street tt market..had nasi lemak..n dunno issit becos of tt time food posioning..nowaday stomach cant seems to take chilli..den jus now keep goin to the toilet..jus tt 5hour..went to the toilet 3times le..hais..so xin ku..den finally dardar knock off le..so happy..den send dardar to the bus stop n back to tiong for dinner..but at the bus stop..sth happen..i pull dardar de hair band down..den she angry wid mi..tt's oso the first time since we stead..she angry wid mi..hais..sorri dardar..i noe wrong le..pls 4gave mi..den while trying to hoax dardar..she sae sth tt hurt my heart alot alot..she sae "i don trust ani one tt say im pretty"..tt sentence realli hurt my heart alot..i realli hate ppl hu don trust mi..ani one can don trust mi..but not u..i realli meant wad i sae..true enough..maybe to other ppl u r not pretty..but in my heart..u r 4ever pretty..i admit u may not be as charming as other ppl out there in tis world (lucky u r not..if not..we wun be together le)..but u noe wad is pretty of u to mi?IT'S UR HEART..the most beautiful tink on earth is not ur appearance..but wad comes out of u..
ok..continue...den on bus..ur frienz call u to tok abt some dance stuff..den after tt..u completely sian liao..den u show mi abit de attitude..but still..tt's alright..u let mi realize wad i did during tt imf period..realli sorri abt it..i alwiz believe everyone got their bad side..it's alright tt u show mi attitude once in awhile..i don mind..seriously i don..u my dardar..i wun be angry wid u jus becos u show mi attitude..i don feel suffer oso..cos i noe u r alrd veri stress up wid ur stuff le..n i realli dowan add on to it..n lyk i sae..i wanna u to be urself when wid mi..everyone in tis world will show attitude..but we try to control it..hao mahx?im alrd trying my best le..u too..kk?n one last tink tt i seriously hate myself for..while i was on the train..i noe u r not happy..i wanted to msg u to cheer u up..but when i started typing..all i cud type is "dardar..i noe u r unhappy........" n all i cud do was stare at it for the next 5min..tinking wad to write..but i realli dunno..n in the end?i ended up sending.."dardar..cheer up..gd nitez"..hais..my dardar is sad n there is nth i cud do..not even cheer her up..hais..m i even fit to be her bf?
SoB..next whole week actually plan to go find dardar almost everyday de..cos sch starting le..but c her shedule..i tink tt's not possible le..wanna c her oso difficult le..hais..but still..i don blame her..she got her tink to bz wid..n i dowan her to squeeze time out jus to pei mi..c her panda eye more n more obvious le..my heart hurt so much..she is so bz..n still need to pei mi go out every thing..SoB
jus now when u ask mi "u really think u tat fortunate..?"..the ans will definitly be a "yes"..the day i stead wid u..i knew im goin to cherish u lyk i hav nvr do in my life..realli jus wanna be wid u tis life..love u lots laopo..muackz

2006-10-15T16:02:00.000+08:00

here to blog again..hahaz..
heard dardar msg tis morning..so wake up to reply her..tot reply was veri slow..cos alwiz i c le..close my eyes..slp awhile..den wake up to reply her..den slp again to wait for her reply..den c le..slp awhile..den wake up to reply again..lolx..kinda tired nowaday la..but next week realli gonna hao hao de rest le..hee..den went off to work at 12..waited for her call b4 i start working..but her stupid dancemates make her so late den dismiss..den chatted wid her for awhile b4 i started working..den at ard 3pm, i went down to united sq to look for her..pei her hav lunch..time past so fast..went to eat wid her..den haven even shop..she needa go back le..sian..so i send her back to her workplace b4 i go back lo..den cos irene sae she wanna go out..so i pei her lo..went back to suntec to return pass n sign out b4 goin to meet irene..went to vivocity wid her..wa..tt place realli big lo..dunno where we r walking oso..walk to harbourfront centre le..but i still dunno..hahaz..too big liao la..got time realli must bring dardar there..the outside scenary realli veri nice..hee =D
cos time reaching le..so took a train back to united sq to look for dardar..sat at chocolate art while waiting for dardar..so chatted wid the "da jie" over there lo..she treat mi eat chocolate..lolx..den pei irene go eat mac..while i drink coke..cos i was kinda thirsty..hahaz..den finally..dardar knock off le..hee..send her to tiong..den ask her call mi..she sae she call mi when she reach home..but till now she still haven call..hais..kinda sad..cos second time le..hais..den on my wae home..was listening to tis song.."i wanna be wid u" by xu jie er..i realli wanna be wid my dardar 4ever..n being wid her is realli a dream come true..how mani ppl can hav a gf tt u can realli be happy wid each time wid her..n both of u wanna stay longer wid each other?how mani ppl can hav gf tt can realli understand n care for u?not alot ba..but im one of the few lucky one to hav such a wonderful gf..so............wad m i complaining abt?fancy getting upset jus becos she did not call mi?ha..
dardar, although u did not sae..but i noe u r abit de jealous ba?fancy chatting so much wid irene n amaryllias?jus wanna assure u..no matter how much i tok to them..all my heart cud occupied de..is jus u..my one n onli one dardar..realli love ya alot alot..muackz

2006-10-14T16:27:00.000+08:00

ok..since im downloading some stuff now..i shall post =D
hmm..it's 1.14am now..a brand new day..hahaz..went to work ytd as usual..but dardar nvr bring her fone.."dardar..do u noe how worry im?almost wanna take a cab down to united sq to find u lo..hais..but when i noe u r safe..onli then i can fang xin..next time rmb ur fone la..don make mi worry"..after tt..met meimei..pei her go tiong bahru for her interview..at there saw my ex..somehow i don wanna c her la..but come to tink of it..i still shd thx her personally for ending tis relationship..if not for her..i wun be wid my dardar now..n i wun be so happy now..isn't it?hahaz..alright..next time if i wid dardar n saw her..i shall thx her..decided..hehe..i dowan tok to her w/o my dardar's pressence..dowan my dardar to jealous..not worth it..hee..jus love my dardar alot alot..can't live w/o her..muackz
after tt, went to united sq to wait for dardar..but ended up too early at united sq..dammed..waited for her for 3 whole hour..so boring..nth to do..sat at chocolate art there chat wid tt da jie..lolx..c dardar there so tired..n yet i got nth to do..my heart hurt so much..somehow feel so useless..let my dardar suffer so much..hais..i promise to work hard..no matter wad must gave dardar a good life..wanna pamper her =D
den finally waited till 10.10 le..she knock off..den walk wid her to mrt station where we take a mrt back to tiong..but no choice..card no money le..plus veri late liao..so i din sent her back to her doorstep..onli till tiong..but seriously still quite worry abt her safety..den ask her reach home call mi..NVR..but nvm la..at least she still call mi b4 she slp..hee..hao la..veri late le..wanna slp too..plus my dl finish le..hee..gd nitez
dardar: "WO AI NI 1314"

2006-10-11T15:07:00.000+08:00

okay..here im to post again..hahaz..if i don post again..ltr some1 gonna sae i nvr post my blog liao..hehe =D
hmm..last few day was working la..nth much to post..den ytd went wid dardar to orchard lo..walk walk..den went home..den todae pei dardar go orchard again..hahaz..we go far east to shop for clothing..cos she need it for her concert mahx..den after walking here n there..she brought a shirt at "little princess"..den she brought 2more shirt at giordano..after tt..we went to bugis street where she brought another skirt..lolx..din noe shopping was so tiring..guess is i old le ba..too long nvr go shopping le..lolx..but thru tis..i noe sth..she still acknowledge my existance..frm time to time..she will still come n hold my hand n hug while we r shopping..hee..realli glad she do tt..tt realli tell mi tt i stand a place in her heart..n she wud nvr let mi be lonely =D
after she's done wid her shopping..we went to marina sq to catch "world trade centre"..told ya it was a nice movie..which realli turn out to be true lahz..worth the money lahz..is a veri touching show..hee..cos b4 the movie start..we still got 2hours more to wait..i went to had my lunch at long john silver..den we went to buy hp key chain at mini toon..brought 2cute "dogs"..one for her..n one for mi..hee..den time arrive le..we went in for the movie..n by the time the movie ended..it was alrd 9+ le lo..hahaz..den we walk over to suntec to shop for awhile..before goin home..but sad tt i nvr send her home la..cos my bus fare no money le..SoB SoB
k la..oso quite late le..write till here ba..
dardar..i realli love u alot alot..time fly so fast when we r together..jus wanna be wid u every min n sec..love ya 1314..muackz

2006-10-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

tis 2day nth much special..ytd watch "rob-b-hood" wid my ex-colleague..a veri nice show..funny n touching..must watch..hee..after tt..pei them go shop shop..den go home le..at nitez chat wid dardar..lucky she brought her fone along..if not..i will be "dead"..hahaz..
finally..todae dardar de camp over le..went to send her home..took an hour plus de bus..she slp an hour plus..lolx..after sending her home..i oso went home le..
dunno y..todae shd be a happy day..cos mi n dardar finally one mth le..but somehow im feeling up n down..too mani too mani tinks tt make mi veri de fan..nth to do wid u dardar..jus alot of other tinks r making veri fan..hais..argh!!!
ani wae..dardar..we 2 finally one mth le..past one mth was realli the happiest moment of my life..hope was happy for u too..maybe we 2 may hav feel unhappy at times..but alwiz rmb one tink..i will alwiz love u no matter wad..thx for being there whenever i need u..tot is not alwiz..but tt's enough le..hope to last till eternity wid u..ai ni 1314..muackz

2006-10-03T15:04:00.000+08:00

totally moodless todae..somehow i wonder..wad m i jealous-ing abt?they r jus frienz..ain't they?argh..i oso dunno ba..jus don lyk the idea of her msging guys so much n keep wanting to find him when cant find him..hais..jealousy do make a person hav mood swing..don u tink so?ha......do frienz realli matter more than bf?or do bf realli matter more than frienz?somehow i dunno which is more impt..dunno lei..jus had tis feeling tt u r more close to ur frienz than wid mi..whenever u had frienz..i felt so neglected..i felt so lonely..m i being too sensative?i realli hope so..

to dardar:i felt fun n laughter is gone..issit the feeling between us is disappearing?or m i tinking too much?i request for the "promise" becos i wan to assure u tt no matter wad happen..we will not leave each other..n to make u feel more relax when wid mi..n tell mi ur unhappiness..since we stead..i realli hope we sae wad's we wanna sae n wad's in our heart..i realli dowan u to hide ur feeling n be carefree n relax n hav fun in tis relationship..realli love u lots galz

2006-09-28T12:39:00.000+08:00

3week 1day le..!!! 6more days =D

ok..start posting
so mani event happen during tis 2days..

ytd went out wid dardar, irene, jianxiong, nic n eepeng..
watch movie at the cathay..
air-con so cold..brrr
den dardar cos so scare..
hold mi till so tight..
hahaz

den after tt..we went to 85 market to meet yi jian n guohui..went to hav our dinner..hehe =D
den cos my dardar stomach not feeling veri well..she not realli tt active..but she still manage to walk frm 85 back to my hse there..den after tt..we chat at the void deck b4 nic send eepeng home..after tt..we sat there awhile longer b4 we proceed over to ecp..sat at the mac for quite some time..chit-chat..had alot of fun n laughter lahz..after tt..we went to somewhere near the beach..to play poker..having lots of fun as usual..but one bad tink..dammed cold lahz..hahaz

den at ard 6, dardarn roy fell asleep wid dardar lying on my lap n roy lying on the table..n for irene..she jus sat ard lo..den went over to the bench near the sea to sit n enjoy the breeze..den at ard 7, we left ecp..den irene n xiong went to some other place while mi n dardar took a bus back to inter first..cos i c dardar veri tired liao..after i buy a pack of nasi lemak..we took 38 back home..

after reaching home..dardar lie on my mattress to slp while i use the computer..but cos i oso veri tired le..so i went to slp at my mummy de bed..but when dardar wake up n din c mi..she so scare..den when leave my hse le..cos she so scare..she cry again..hais..sorri dardar..i shd not hav left u alone..i shd keep company by ur side..

den finally dardar calm down le..den i assure her tt no matter wad, i will not leave her..she will be my love 4ever..den after tt..we hug each other tightly..
reach city hall le, den wen to funan..n cos dardar hungry le..so she had mac while i go up myself to collect the laptop..but dammit..still not ready la..so i went back down to mac..den after dardar finish her breakfast..we sit there chat awhile lo..while chatting..somehow we jus wanna hold our hand together..den after awhile..actually wanna leave de..but raining..no choice..hav to stay at funan..den mi n dardar went to roam ard in funan..looking at computer games n stuff lahz..den finally the technician call n sae my laptop is ready for collection..so mi n dardar went up to take..but so mani ppl lo..waited till dardar fell asleep..hahaz..guess she is jus realli veri tired ba..

after take laptop le..went to take bus..but so suay..while on the bus..while i hugging dardar..saw my dad..knn..tot he nvr sae ani tink la..but i noe go home sure tio kan de..den nvm..after tt..i still continue to send dardar home..after tt..i went home myself..n guess wad?i miss my stop again..tis time alight at simei..dammit..second time in a mth liao lo..

den nvm..i reach home le..had some tink to eat b4 goin to slp..den at 8+, dardar call to sae she online..so i sae i slp awhile longer b4 goin online..den sadness begin..

when i woke up, dad there kb..sae wad my age not suitable for bgr, hug in public lyk wad..den is lyk..wtf, ur tinking still ramain in the olden time lo..i noe u n mummy no romantic lahz..don need jealous lahz..kau..den he there sae sae sae..den i here left in right out..right in..left out..hahaz..hu cares man?so wad if i let u catch mi one more time?even if i let u catch a thousand time, a million time..i still wanna hug my dardar..wad can u do?u tink i care abt wad u say?i tell u..i don..over my 17yrs in life..except for providing mi wid the basic to live n study plus money..wad did u eva do?NTH..i hav had enough liao lo..my parent are not even fit to be my parent..if u wan mi to respect u..at least u shd show mi some respect..money n study is all u care..did u eva show mi love?no..u DON..don force mi one day to die right b4 ur veri eyes..n make u regret for the rest of ur life..trust mi, i will

but wad makes mi hurt the most is not tis..is my clique..actually strike my name off the list?argh!!! 4get it..i don feel im in my clique ani wae..ani tink oso left mi out..den wad's the point of mi staying in it?i don need frienz liddat..i can survive on my own in IT..n since u don regard mi as ur frienz..pls kindly fuck out of my life..

to dear: i realli feel the love in us growing deeper esp after todae..our love is make strong wid obstacles..n no matter wad obstacles await us,i will hold ur hand tight n go thru thick n thin wid u..love ya lots..muackz

2006-09-26T11:03:00.000+08:00

ok..after a few days of unhappy post..todae finally gonna post some happy stuff..

went out wid dardar tis morning to funan digital life mall..went to fix my laptop..so mani tai ji..
den after tt..we walk all the wae frm funan to marina square to hav my breakfast cum lunch..haha..cos dardar not feeling well..so we sat there for some time..so tt she can hav some rest lo..while i having mi lunch too mahx..hahaz..

after tt..we went to walk ard marina sq..walk here walk there..looking at bears..lolx..den went to arcade..where dardar play some of the games there..while i watch =D
den after tt..cos realli nth to do le..so went to suntec..AGAIN! lolx
somehow mi n my dardar..no matter go where..we will happen to go to suntec..lolx..
den at suntec..we went to our usual place.."tasty treatz"..lolx..
at there..tok to some of the tenants there..den went over to tok to beehoon..after tt..took some of the winning cards to play..n guess wad?my luck got better..i finally got the Bee Cheng Hiang which i wanted to get on fri but cant..!!! lolx..
den went to sort out the losing card..nth to do again..took the winning card to play again..hahaz..n guess wad..tink im jus lucky wid my dardar by my side ba..got the euro-delight which my dardar wans..hehe =D
after tt..we sat there to chit-chat till 4.30..den finally we made our wae to tp..cos dardar having dance mahx..on the wae there..dardar lie down to slp..comfortable hor?hehe =D

after 1hour of slp..she finally woke up..n we got down frm bus to change bus..den after sending her to sch..i went home..nw im at home blogging while waiting for her to dismiss..hee..

dardar..maybe in our relationship..there is sth tt we sure r unhappy abt each other..we might quarrel..but no matter wad..right down in my heart..the onli person tt i love is onli u..n no one can replace u in my heart..i don wish u to hide ani tink frm mi jus lyk i don hide ani tink frm u..kk?

love u lots..eternity love~

2006-09-24T15:04:00.000+08:00

ha..somehow, tis blog become a place where i shout out all my sadness le ba =(
realli kinda sad todae lahz..somehow dunno y

dardar..i noe if u c tis, u gonna cry again..
but somehow, i realli don wanna hide my feeling..
jus lyk how i tell u not to hide ur feeling..

tis morning u msg mi..
but im realli too tired, so i jus reply back ur msg..
but after each msg, i din get ani reply le..
guess u r sleeping on the bus or has alrd reach sch le ba..

den in the afternoon,
when i call u, u sae u wud call mi back ltr..
but u din..
honestly, i was abit de sad..

when u msg mi in the afternoon,
sorri i show u attitude..
i shdn't hav..
but dardar, next time jus at least gave mi a msg..hao ma?
i noe it is kinda difficult for u to tok in ur instructor car, but at least a msg to tell mi..kk?
rather than mi at home worrying abt u..

den when u release frm work le..
u msg to tell mi selina went to find u..
den after a few msg..no reply le
call u oso chat less than a few min..hang up le
hais..guess tonight u wun be msging or calling mi le ba?
but still i hope u wud..
at least a word to tell mi tt u hav gone to slp le..
jus a msg to tell mi tt u still tink of mi b4 u slp..
i realli hope u wud do tt... =S

guess im still a failure stead ba..getting upset over trival matter lyk all tis
till now, i hav alwiz been the one complaining..but nvr hear u complaining abt mi..
hais..u noe mahx?i realli wanna noe how u tink, ur thoughts..wad unhappiness u hav in ur heart..
if u don tell mi, i wun get to understand u more..

dardar, when i sae i wanna be wid u forever,i meant it..
i realli wanna hold ur hand tight n overcome ani obstacle awaiting us ahead
i noe i once told u tt i wan u to be urself..till now, i still hope u r still urself..
but while being urself, don neglect mi..hao mahx?

i noe i hav nva tell u wad life im goin thru..i never eva tell u wad my life is in my family..
im jus a child w/o ani love frm my parent..
but when i met u..u realli brought colour into my life..
cos i noe u realli love mi..n tt's all i needed to noe..

i realli love u..n im jus too afraid to lose u..
our time together may not be much but i realli cherish every sec n min wid u..
i noe im not a humorous nor romantic person...
but everydae, i realli m trying my best to make u happy n making u my little princess..

dardar..i realli love u..
don eva leave mi alone in tis cruel world......

~weemeng love vivien 184~

2006-09-24T02:22:00.000+08:00

i wonder wad todae will be like..like ytd?i realli hope not..

ytd waited till 2am for ur msg..but still din receive it..
m i expecting too much frm u?tink so ba..
maybe we jus started not long..
we still dunno wad each other expect frm tis bgr ba..

hais...
slowly ba...i will try my best to undetstand u..
to find out wad u wan..wad u lyk
how u tink..n how u felt against mi...

some1 once told mi tis phrase..
"nvr cry for anyone..for the one u cry for isn't worth ur tears..n the one hu deserve it will not make u cry"
as ur bf, i hav alrd fail to be a gd one..all i can do now is to make u happy everyday
i can't promise i wun make u cry again..but i promise i will minimize it..
i will make u my little princess..hao hao de love u..hao hao de pamper u..
nvr let u be hurt agian..

dardar..i realli love u alot alot..jus wanna be wid u tis life..no one can eva replace u in my heart..love u 4ever..muackz =D

2006-09-20T16:53:00.000+08:00

sorri..veri long nvr post le..
kinda busy nowadays
todae is one day i wanna post..

woke up at 8 in the morning..n did the normal stuff
left hse at 9 to meet dardar..
but was late..hehe..
sorri dear..

den surprise tt irene was even earlier than us..
hahaz..

todae work was ok lahz..
slack here slack there..
one day goin past le

den send dardar home..
den after tt..i took the mrt..
but i overshot..
slp in the mrt till wake up..
everybody gone liao..
hais...
so scare den..

ok..tis is the part i wanna tok abt
dardar..i dunno if u wud eva c tis
but i hope u don mind mi posting tis..

i went to the bus stop at pasir ris mrt station..
was so scare den..
faster faster go c wad bus i can take home..
lucky still go 17
den while waiting for 17,
i tot of my dardar..
so wish she was wid mi then..
to comfort mi..
so i msg her..

she miss call back..
n i call her..
but less than 5min..
she sae she go do sth first..
so i hang up..
but i still haven calm down..
den when i board the bus..
i still wanna doze off..
i feel fear..
im scare..
im lost..
however, i feel so disappointed at the same time
in my mind, there is tis question "where is my dardar when i needed her most?"
still, i tot she hav sth impt to do..so i shd understand her

but when she call back,
i ask her wad she doin..
she told mi she testing nich..
hais.......
she abondoned mi to test nic when i needed her the most?

however, she onli bears to hang up the call when i reach home..
so 4get it ba

ani wae..dardar, happy 2week anniversary!!!

2006-09-15T15:49:00.000+08:00

1week 3days....

hmm..todae was kinda bad day for mi lahz..
chatted wid dear while she on bus goin sch..
den after tt..she came down to suntec to find mi..
after i finish my stuff..
we went for lunch

after tt..
becos of some stuff..
both of us were unhappy..
first time both of us become so cold..
hais..
but im glad we r ok ltr.. =D

after tt..i went to gave out delegates booklet
n dear pei irene gave out the flyer..

after tt..
knock off le..
mi n dardar pei irene go esplanade look for roy..
waited for him so long tt i fell asleep lo..

after tt..we took 131 to dardar home..
n i send dardar right to her doorstep..hehe =D

after tt..i took a train n went home..
END OF DAY =D

to dear: i promise i wun be angry wid u no matter wad..n pls rmb tis..no matter wad happen..i will alwiz love u.. =D

2006-09-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

1week 2day of stead...

todae nth much lahz..
din realli get to chat wid u much todae..
nite time..becos some1 make u unhappy
make u so moodless..hais

N WAD DID I DO?NTH!!!
hais...i realli fail to be a good stead after all
i wanted my dear dear to be happy everydae..
no matter wad..
i wanna her to be my little princess..
but when she is sad..wad did i do?
NTH!!!
hais =S

sometime i realli wonder..m i a good stead?
now i noe the ans..
I DON..I SIMPLY DON

to baobei: sorri, i can't do ani tink when i c u so sad..
i duno wad i can do to cheer u up..
im such a failure...
sorri...
sorri...i fail to be a good stead..realli sorri =S

2006-09-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

1week 1day of stead...

tis morning..
dardar msg mi when she woke up..
but tt time i was stil sleeping..
den was lyk replying her half asleep =P

den after tt..
i wake up le..
prepare hao le..go out..
call my dardar...
chatted wid her all the wae till she enter the studio..

after tt..
her dance finish le..
she took 69 back to bedok inter..
before changing to 196 to come suntec n find mi..
chatted wid her all the wae..hahaz

after tt..she went to help mi buy lunch again..
hehe..
love her so much..muackz =D

after tt..
we listen to some music..b4 on-ing my laptop to watch a comedy...
however, i too tired liao..end up sleeping..while she watch alone =P
sorri dear...............
jus nice when she finish the show..
the batt went dead..lolx

after tt..
chatted awhile..b4 yi jian n irene came..
chatted awhile wid them..
den i started packing up n prepare to go home..!!! hehe

after signning out, went to wait for 16
but todae 16 is realli too dammed long lahz..
reach tiong le..oso waited for 123 for a veri long time..
after i send her home..
i oso went home myself le..
not too much..not too less..
11.30 jus nice..lolx

to dear:sometime i felt i jus don understand u enough..but gave mi sometime..i promise i will noe u well..promise to treat u lyk my little princess now..n wun eva let ani one bully u..cos in tis world..onli i can bully u =P
lolx..kidding..i where bear to bully u..lolx

hao ba..
i gonna slp too..
my eye closing oso le..
too tired le..

love ya n swt dreamz..
muackZ

weemeng n vivien 184

2006-09-12T15:57:00.000+08:00

1week of stead....

"2dae.. went out wif dardar again..bcoz dardar work till 2pm.. den we arranged 2 go watch movie.. watch "Little Man".. hee.. so i met him at PS.. den we go buy tickets 4 e movie first.. den seems tat stil got some time left.. so we went 2 hav lunch.. ate KFC.. coz i got e coupon.. so cheaper.. hehe.. den after eating.. we shop shop awhile.. den e time is bout 2 reach ma.. so we went 2 buy a drink den went into e cinema lo.. hehe.. but coz still early.. e movie haven start.. its all commercials.. haha.. so bored tat e both of us nearly fell asleep.. haha.. den e movie started.. e movie is so humourous.. n so funny.. haha.. enjoyed e movie..

after e movie.. we took a bus 2 e bus stop near orchard MRT.. den we walked over 2 Far East.. y leh..?? bcoz i wan buy e wallet i saw when i wif Irene e other dae.. so we went there 2 buy my wallet.. its so nice.. after which we decided 2 go Suntec 2 look 4 Irene n e other guys.. when we at e MRT station.. we juz missed a train.. so got some time left.. so i sat down.. n transfer my things from my old wallet 2 my new wallet.. hee.. den e train comes.. took e train bugis.. den after tat walk from bugis 2 Suntec.. hee.. den after tat found Yi Jian.. later found Irene oso.. hehe.. den juz awhile later they finish their flyers le.. so we go walk ard.. den bought rice 4 Nick n e other gal.. of course 4 Yi Jian oso la.. den chatted at near e happy kidz booth..

den left.. dardar sent mi home...dardar.. i got another thing tat i hav 2 tell u.. hee.. juz now.. hehe.. i told my mum bout us.. she din object.. juz say a little things la.. but she din really mind actually.. hehe.. aniway.. happy 1mth anniversary 2.. hehe... " >>> by dardar

the next tink i felt veri happy becos...dardar told her mum tt we stead..n her mum nvr object..keke..thankew dardar for acknowledging mi as ur bf..love ya lots..

oh ya..one more tink..i realli wanna thx dear for being such an understanding n reasonable gf..when i tok to my frienz(male n female)..she did not blame mi for neglecting her..instead she told mi "it's ok, they need ur help"..tt's so generous of u dear dear..love u lots

meeting dardar again tml..she coming to pei mi work..my dardar soooooo good..hee

HAPPY ONE WEEK ANNIVERSARY!!!

to dear: i can't find another gd..reasonable..understanding..swt..loving n most of all pretty girlfrienz lyk u..i promise to cherish n treasure u lyk a precious gems n not lose u 4eva..realli love ya 184..muackz~

2006-09-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

6th day of stead....

finally..
one more day to our one week anniversary =D
love u dear...

okay...
todae u went to work early than mi..
so shd be quite tired ba?
must rest well wor

den i went to work todae..
so tiring lo..
giving up flyer for whole straight 7hours..Zzzzz

den after 7..
had kfc for dinner wid my frienz..
den go find u le..
but on my wae..
sprain my ankle..
pain sia..
bear the pain..n i reach united square..
finally..hahaz
tis time onli waited 20min..hehez

after tt..
we slowly walk home...
den on the bus..
we chat on normal stuff lahz..

reach tiong le..
den somehow..
chatted on some stuff..
i dowan sae lahz..
ltr ppl sae i racist..
hahaz..
den we had quite some fun =D

after tt..walk u to ur door step..
first time to ur door step..hee
den after tt..
kiss u gd nite..
den i go le..hee

hao ba..end of the day..tml still need go work early
Zzzzzz
okok..gd nitez..swt dreamz

LAOPO...WO AI NI..!!! muackz

2006-09-10T16:05:00.000+08:00

5th day of stead

hehe..
baobei..had a surprise tt i suddenly went down to find u?
keke =D

ok...
todae dardar msg mi first in the morning cos she bring her didi to sch
den we chatted on fone for quite awhile lo..
jus suddenly dunno y jus wan u to noe abt tis blog..
so there u go..
hahaz

den when u lunch break..
we oso chatted on fone awhile..
but cos ur fone goin no batt le..
so din chat long..

den after tt..
u continue working..
i oso continue working..
so tiring hor?
lolx

den cos i finish work early todae..
so i decide to go to united square to gave u a surprise
n send u home...
but hu noe...the road to united square so long..
so tiring lo..walk till i out of breath ah..
old liao..hahaz..
but nvm..
when i saw u..
all my energy come back..hehe

waited for u for 2hours..
finally u release le..
so happy...hahaz..

after tt..
send u home..
at bus..hug u so much..
first galz tt eva hug mi tt way oso..
simply jus love u so much..muackz

after tt..walk u home after alighting..
after send u to ur hse le..
i went to take bus..
den change to mrt..
den back to tanah merah..
den take 38 home cos shoe spoil le..
hahaz..

n dear dear..guess the time i reach home?
12.30..!!! lolx..

hao la..veri late le..1.05 liao..
gonna slp le..tml still need wake up early...Zzzzz

love u n miss ya, baby..muackz

2006-09-09T10:12:00.000+08:00

sorri dear..ytd slp le..
so din manage to reply n call u..

4th day of stead...

well...
todae alot of unhappy tink happen lahz..
but unhappy r not suppose to be recorded..
isn't it?hehe =D

ok..
woke up in the morning..
msg u but u did not reply..
den call u..but u still have not on ur fone..
so tot u still sleeping..din call back..
10plus msg n call u..but u still sleeping..
hais..
den call u 5min before 11..
u on ur fone le..!!!
but u not pick up..lol
den it was all the way until 12plus..
msg u..no reply
call u..no ans
realli then started to worry wad happen to u
keep calling n calling...
den finally u call back..
den can finally felt bit relieve..

but unfortunately, u not free to come out..
kinda sad abt it..
cos plus todae 3day nvr c u le..
realli miss u alot alot =S
shuan le..over liao

while on my wae back..
chatted wid ya for quite awhile..
hehe =D
den i went to play pool n u continue packing ur stuff..

after tt..u went to ur mum stall to help up
while i went home to slp
hahaz..

hao la..
dowan write le..
realli no mood for blogging..
bye..!

love ya darling..
miss-ing u more n more each day..
muackz

2006-09-08T12:07:00.000+08:00

3rd day of stead...

hmm..
msg u in the morning..
but u nvr reply..guess u bz ba
den call u at 11..chatted wid u awhile..
den we go bz le..

after tt..
we chatted awhile online..
guess thru msg..
we jus don hav ani topic ba?
lolx

while online..
u put my sleeping pic on friendster!!!
lolx..so ugly lo..hahaz
but nvm..n im glad u did..
love ya~

in the afternoon,
i went out wid my frienz to play bball..pool n bowling..
while u..went out wid irene to c her stead lion dance
which mean to sae..
we din meet todae...
so miss ya..
2day nvr c u le..
miss eu so much so much...
muackie~

hmm...
hao ba..tink todae post until here lo..
ltr sure is call n chat wid u till i slp de
as usual..hehez =D

hope to c u soon!!!
i love vivien so much so much
muackz~

2006-09-06T16:53:00.000+08:00

2nd day of stead

din get to meet u todae..
i working todae..n u having dance class
so miss u todae..
no one buy lunch for mi!!!
lolx

hais..
dunno when den can meet u..
hao xiang hao xiang ni wor..=D
hope to meet u soon

hmm..
so heartbreak tt u so tired todae =S
hai hao u take a bus home
n
u slept early todae..
if not i more heartbreak..
hehe..

hmm..
hw i wish u were by my side every min every sec
tt wud be so gd..
hehe =D

nvm..
i wait..
still got few more yrs to go..
must wait..!!!!
hahaz..

we must last long long..kk?
love u darling..
muackz~

2006-09-06T16:47:00.000+08:00

ok..
our first day of stead..

well..
i did tis onli on the 3rd day of stead..
early in the morning lahz
hehe =D

baobei~
I LOVE U..

dear...u noe ma
i nvr expect u to be my gf
but u r now!!! hehe

hope our first date was fun for u =D

went to sch to pick u up..
den take bus to suntec..
den while walking..
i ask u to be my gf
n u sae yes..!!!
yeah!!! so happy..hahaz

den we hold hand..
go to the booth awhile to find my frienz..
after tt we went to gelare to hav ice-cream..yummy
hahaz

after tt..
we walk all the way to bugis to shop
nth much actually..
went to c some cd n went to the arcade lahz
but somehow my dardar de game no more le..
so disappointing

but tt was oso when i first kiss u..
i actually 4get the feeling of loving some1 after so long
but im glad u help mi found the feeling back
love u dardar~

den after bit of shopping at cold storage n delifrance,
we took a bus n send u home..
chit-chat on the bus..
den finally u goin reach le
so "she bu de" u..
but still hav to send u home
so jus gave u a goodbye kiss
n u actually gave mi 1 too
so gan dong..
first gal to eva gave mi a goodbye kiss

after reaching home,
call u awhile b4 i slp..
chatted till ur batt flat
hahaz..
tt's abt it ba

05 / 09 / 2006
a memorable day for mi n u..
love u darling
muackz~