Tuesday, October 31, 2006
with LOVE ; *
hmm..another day had past..miss dardar so much..em..shall not post the event for todae..but wanna tell dardar sth right frm my heart..dardar..i realli veri scare to lose u..u noe?everytime quarrel wid u..so scare tt u will leave mi..6more day to 2mth..n one more mth to 3mth..so scare sth bad wud happen third mth onward..realli dowan to tink wad might happen..jus hope we will past it together..every min n sec i spend wid u..i feel so fortunate..i noe im wid some1 whom i can tell my heart out..whom love mi..everyday wid u is so happy n sweet..dardar..im glad i found u..i promise i will cherish u lots cos i noe i will nvr find some1 tt love mi as much as u do..u make mi feel xin fu everyday..ani wae..u noe mahx?i realli love the way u hug mi..it's a feeling which i dunno how to describe..jus too heavenly..so hug mi more..yea?hee..i dunno if u like the way i kiss n hug u..i simply love hugging n kissing u becos for every kiss n hug tt i gave u, meant tt i love u more n more each second..jus wanna be wid u tis life..n i wanna u to be my last gf..jus wanna hold ur hand till the day im old..till the day i die..
when i sae i miss u..i jus wish tt i cud c u the next moment
n when i sae i love u, i meant it..
some ppl tell mi.."don sae i miss u when u don..don sae i love u..when ur heart is actually somewhere else"
dardar..now im jus gonna tell u..I MISS U N I LOVE U..muackz
3:01 PM
Sunday, October 29, 2006
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hmm..tis morning went to suntec to find yi jian..den went to hav lunch wid irene..yi jian n nic at suntec de food court..had chicken chop..so nice..hee..den while eating lunch..chatted wid dardar for awhile..den she go back to work le..sian..after finish lunch..send irene to city hall mrt..den mi, yi jian and nic went to bugis..walk ard bugis junction for awhile..den went to mac to study..we study till 4.10, den cos there meet till amaryllias..n she was realli too noisy..we went to novena earlier..cos dardar sae she miss mi..n i miss her too la..so went over to find her lo..n expected..we reach too early..so we went to walk ard united sq..nth much actually..den after awhile..dardar break le..but it was nth much..she sae miss mi..but i don feel the miss in her..hais..sad..den after she went back to work le, we took a train to orchard..had kfc there..den went to heeren n cineleisure to walk walk..den after tt..cos quite late le..so we went home..now at home le..waiting for dardar to call..but she din..hais..onli after i msg her..den i receive her msg..dunno issit she receive my msg le..den send tt msg..or send tt msg le..den receive my msg..hais..she nvr charge her hp again!!! sian..wanna chat wid her de..but she nvr charge her fone again..realli sad la =S
dowan post liao la..no mood le..................
2:02 PM
with LOVE ; *
hmm..went out wid dardar ytd..so happy..hee..after class..went to bedok interchange to eat fishball noodle..stupid aunty..put so much chilli..made the noodle hot lyk siao..sian..den after tt..went to suntec to collect my pay..tot not all the pay out la..nvm..at least i got bit of money now le..hee..went to cheque in..den went over to marina sq to buy movie ticket for "death note"..hee..cos the show start at 6.50, so we went to walk walk ard..did some window shopping at marina b4 goin over to suntec..hahaz..went to suntec..den the customer service counter de ppl help mi charge my laptop n let mi put my bag at the counter..so good!!! hee..den after tt..went to tasty treat to walk walk..same old tink..den we decide to go e-life..so big..but onli minority of the shop open nia..nth much de..hahaz..ytd eat till dardar so full..hahaz..had french fries n coke at marina sq de mac..den had cookie n otah at tasty treatz..den a big coke in the cinema..den a susuage at tasty treatz after the movie too..hahaz..death note was nice..tot it doesn't hav an ending..lolx..well..jus hav to wait for the second epsiode to come out ba..lolx..ani wae..tt "L" inside tt show realli looks lyk a cat..lolx..den after having tt susuage..send dardar to the bus stop..cos too late liao..cant send her home..if not tio kan by parent again..sian..ok..enough of happy tink..now for sth sad..dardar was on the fone wid irene then..den at some pt of time..she wud push mi away..hais..wad issit tt i can't hear?din we agree on no secret between the 2 of us?kinda disappointed la..shuan le..since she cant be clear between the 2 of us..i wun force her..tt's jus not my style of doin tink..
hmm..todae dardar work frm 9-10..gonna miss her lots..she work 33hours tis week lo..hais..c her so tired..realli make my heart break..hais..nvm..next sun dardar gonna pei mi..our special day..hee..love ya lots dardar..muackz..
1:09 AM
Friday, October 27, 2006
with LOVE ; *
hmm..a tiring day todae nehz..had lesson at 9 todae again..so tired..den while goin to sch..my "dog" drop..sob..gone in the bus..hais..my "dog"!!!! sian..had oopg in the morning..was so boring..den waited dardar for one hour..dardar break le..hee..went to business school for lunch..i had chicken chop for lunch while dardar had chicken cutlet wid curry sauce..dardar ate till she feel veri hot in the mouth..lolx..den after tt..we went to the bookshop to buy some stuff..den bought dardar water to drink too..hahaz..after tt, 4hours of lec..so wu liao..slept for the whole 4hours..tot cant realli slp..lolx..4hours past..finally...send dardar till orchard there..den i change bus home..cant send her home..if not i dunno wad time den reach home le..hee..now at home liao..miss dardar so much..tml goin watch death note wid dardar..finally..hahaz..hope tml wud be a better day wor..hee..love dardar lots lots..muackz
11:57 AM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
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hais..y is everyone in this world wearing a mask?i feel i cant trust ani1 in tis world except dardar..tt's such a sad tink to noe..sob..miss-ing dardar more n more each day..realli can't live w/o her..SHE'S MY LIFE..hee..every parting wid u is so hard..can't bear to part wid u..jus wanna be wid u every min..every sec..love u lots..muackz
todae tot cant meet dardar till 6 de..but in the end..we meet more than expected..hee..i skip my iiso to pei her..n dardar skip cmsk3 to pei mi..in the end?we were together for 4hours..hee..yea..tml after lunch..can be wid dardar for 4hours again..4hours of lecture..hahaz..hope mi n dardar study hard hard..n be in the same class next yr..hee..
now at home le..waiting for dardar to call..hee..
1:12 PM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
with LOVE ; *
back to blog again..been sleeping for 12hours todae..realli dammed tired man..hais..hmm..dardar working 13hours todae..sian..so heartbreak to c her so tired sia..hais..dardar goin fall sick liao..sob..must hao hao de take care wor dear..every sec..every min tt din c u..i miss u more..still got 8yrs more ah..hais..so long..hais..jus had to wait ba..i guess..love u lots..muackz
had been thinking..y ppl alwiz change to suit other ppl?y must we change to suit other ppl?don u ppl find it veri tiring?ppl sae the way i speak got attitude..the way i dress, the way i look sux..don lyk tis..don lyk tt..life itself is veri tiring le..n y must i still change to suit u ppl?i don own ppl ani tink..if u don lyk mi..den fuck off..i don wish to face ppl wid a fake face..jus sae tt u don lyk mi..n fuck out of my life..tt's all..i hav alwiz been true to ppl..but wad ppl do?simply jus took advantage of mi..kau..frienz?haha..jus another bunch of ppl in tis world..come n go as they wish..
shuan le ba..be frienz wid mi ONLI if u r true to mi..if not..fuck out of my life..
8:30 AM
Friday, October 20, 2006
with LOVE ; *
so heartbreak tt they force dardar to stay in sch till so late..somemore is not by the instructor..but by some freaking idiots..realli wonder if they hav brain anot?so late go home=late slp=no energy..how to perform well w/o energy?fuck up by them la..dardar so tired le..having headache liao..still make her stay till so late..lucky she had bus home lo..if not i dunno wad might happen to her..tis few day dunno y xin qin so not gd oso..whole week if not is quarrel..is heart breaking stuff..hais..my heart hurt alot alot now..c dardar so tired..n yet i cant do ani tink..im such a useless asshole..how i wish im her..can suffer in place of her..
2:49 PM
with LOVE ; *
went for a bbq ytd..whole nitez din slp..den early morning went to tiong n brought breakfast for dardar b4 sending her to sch..while on the way, i slp on her shoulder..realli too tired le..hope i din make ur shoulder ache..hee..after sending her to sch..i came home to rest..onli manage to catch an hour of slp..b4 i hav to go sch again..hais..time table out todae..dunno shd sae gd or not..manage to hav almost the same time table wid dardar..but everydae end so late..sian lo..den after briefing, dardar went back to her dance..den i went to meet irene..went wid her to do some shopping la..kinda tiring..too long nvr shop so long le..after much shopping, nitez le..so we went home..but cos irene took the wrong train to lavender(blur of her la..hehe)..we sat at lavender station to chat..den chat chat chat..we recall some of the sad stuff la..hais..den after tt..cos too late liao..i ask her go home..cos i needa go home too..if not mummy goin kb again le..
kinda sad mood now..dunno if i hav made the correct choice the other day la..although im unwillingly, but i hav no choice..dardar cant bear to let go..neither can i let dardar go..rite?the more i care for u..i felt myself getting sad over small small matter..hais..our third month coming soon le..kinda scare..realli hope u wud hold mi tight..n overcome every obstacles ahead of us..neither can we let go..dardar fone no batt again..hais..dunno wad time she goin reach home todae..dunno by the time she reach home, m i asleep not?sometime, i felt tt our distance getting more n more apart le..issit becos of the concert?realli hope so..concert is tml..hopefully after tml..u will hav more time for mi..miss ya lots..muackz
1:25 PM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
with LOVE ; *
back to blog agian..hee..
went out early to find dardar todae..realli felt lyk hugging her tight..ytd becos of jealousy, i hurt her alot alot..sorri dardar..after i met her, i settle some matter wid her..peacefully of cuz..n im glad we finally came to an decision..tot i dunno if i hav did the right tink..but still, i wanna trust her..trust tt her heart onli hav mi..n no other ppl..tot everytime a quarrel is painful n sad..but each time i felt tt i love her more..i learn to cherish her more..so afraid tt i will lose her..
todae send her to sch..den cos needa wait for her for quite some time..i went to take 33..to try the time taken to travel to tiong..n becos when i took to bras basah road..is alrd 45min, i realise tt it is too long..so i alight n take a bus back to inter n meet dardar in sch..but she suddenly last min sae she needa go training..cant meet mi..hais.but nvm la..i understand..cant blame her oso..den after her training..she call mi..sounding abit sad..den i ask her wad happen..her dancemate left her alone again..hais..she is sad..n yet i cant be wid her?hais..wad kind of stead m i..den after chatting awhile..she went back to the studio..n she sae she wanna rest..so hang up..hais..y did she reject my offer to pei her chat..at least she wun be so lonely..yyy?don understand..den i promise her tt i will be picking her up ltr de..but cos im staying overnight at the bbq..n scare i cant make it back..den i told her i cant accompany her home..did i make the right choice?hais..realli hope she don mind..but i promise i will call her at 10 sharp..wanna pei her chat till she reach home..den tml morning..goin find her..goin send her to sch..i promise..hao ba..post till here first..got time den post again..
dardar..trust mi..no matter wad happen..if u wanna mi by ur side..call mi..i will rush down the moment i can make it..n be there for u..don need to feel bad or wad..as long as im outside..i will rush down the moment u call..love u alot alot..miss u so much so much..muackz..ai ni 1314
11:50 AM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
with LOVE ; *
feel so much lyk crying now..seeing all those photo make mi feel more n more sad now..wad m i jealousing abt?is jus pictures..isn't it?wad m i being sad abt?i feel thousand n thousand of knife piercing into my heart..it hurt so much..i realli dunno wad to write..i realli dunno wad to do..wad do i do now?wad CAN i do now? =(
i shd not hav seen all those pic..so much feel lyk closing my eyes now n hope tt it was all a dreamz..but it isn't..it's reality..a reality tt i noe i cant run away frm..WAD SHD I DO NOW?my mind hao ruan hao ruan ah..hais.........................................................................................
8:47 AM
with LOVE ; *
hmm..got nth to do todae..so boring..dardar at dance frm 7 in the morning to 9 in the night..hais..sometime c her so tired..realli make my heart hurt alot..wonder wad she is doin now..her last msg was 12.05pm..realli miss her alot alot..sob sob..jus hope after concert..she will hav more time for mi ba..time faster pass..faster 9pm..so i can chat wid her..hee..wonder tml will meet up wid her mahx..tml class oso got bbq..dunno wan go mahx..dardar not free in the night..so which mean tt if i go..i will be goin alone..sian..kinda left out by my grp of frienz le..go = boring..hais..sian la..tis few day jus isn't the day for mi..so fan..dunno wad to write liao oso..write till here ba..
DARDAR..I MISS U ALOT ALOT..muackz
8:27 AM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
with LOVE ; *
another day had pass..n TODAE is jus not the day for mi..hais..alot alot to sae..but simply jus doesn't hav the mood to sae..onli had one phrase tt i shd write it down to remind myself of.."if u can't get pass tis..u will NVR get close to her"
---> A DAY TT I DON WISH TO RMB
2:33 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
with LOVE ; *
hais..wad a day..waited for dardar for 5hour n wad turn out to be is onli sadness..sob sob..went ard for 5hours while waiting for dardar..ate at behind bugis street tt market..had nasi lemak..n dunno issit becos of tt time food posioning..nowaday stomach cant seems to take chilli..den jus now keep goin to the toilet..jus tt 5hour..went to the toilet 3times le..hais..so xin ku..den finally dardar knock off le..so happy..den send dardar to the bus stop n back to tiong for dinner..but at the bus stop..sth happen..i pull dardar de hair band down..den she angry wid mi..tt's oso the first time since we stead..she angry wid mi..hais..sorri dardar..i noe wrong le..pls 4gave mi..den while trying to hoax dardar..she sae sth tt hurt my heart alot alot..she sae "i don trust ani one tt say im pretty"..tt sentence realli hurt my heart alot..i realli hate ppl hu don trust mi..ani one can don trust mi..but not u..i realli meant wad i sae..true enough..maybe to other ppl u r not pretty..but in my heart..u r 4ever pretty..i admit u may not be as charming as other ppl out there in tis world (lucky u r not..if not..we wun be together le)..but u noe wad is pretty of u to mi?IT'S UR HEART..the most beautiful tink on earth is not ur appearance..but wad comes out of u..
ok..continue...den on bus..ur frienz call u to tok abt some dance stuff..den after tt..u completely sian liao..den u show mi abit de attitude..but still..tt's alright..u let mi realize wad i did during tt imf period..realli sorri abt it..i alwiz believe everyone got their bad side..it's alright tt u show mi attitude once in awhile..i don mind..seriously i don..u my dardar..i wun be angry wid u jus becos u show mi attitude..i don feel suffer oso..cos i noe u r alrd veri stress up wid ur stuff le..n i realli dowan add on to it..n lyk i sae..i wanna u to be urself when wid mi..everyone in tis world will show attitude..but we try to control it..hao mahx?im alrd trying my best le..u too..kk?n one last tink tt i seriously hate myself for..while i was on the train..i noe u r not happy..i wanted to msg u to cheer u up..but when i started typing..all i cud type is "dardar..i noe u r unhappy........" n all i cud do was stare at it for the next 5min..tinking wad to write..but i realli dunno..n in the end?i ended up sending.."dardar..cheer up..gd nitez"..hais..my dardar is sad n there is nth i cud do..not even cheer her up..hais..m i even fit to be her bf?
SoB..next whole week actually plan to go find dardar almost everyday de..cos sch starting le..but c her shedule..i tink tt's not possible le..wanna c her oso difficult le..hais..but still..i don blame her..she got her tink to bz wid..n i dowan her to squeeze time out jus to pei mi..c her panda eye more n more obvious le..my heart hurt so much..she is so bz..n still need to pei mi go out every thing..SoB
jus now when u ask mi "u really think u tat fortunate..?"..the ans will definitly be a "yes"..the day i stead wid u..i knew im goin to cherish u lyk i hav nvr do in my life..realli jus wanna be wid u tis life..love u lots laopo..muackz
2:30 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
with LOVE ; *
here to blog again..hahaz..
heard dardar msg tis morning..so wake up to reply her..tot reply was veri slow..cos alwiz i c le..close my eyes..slp awhile..den wake up to reply her..den slp again to wait for her reply..den c le..slp awhile..den wake up to reply again..lolx..kinda tired nowaday la..but next week realli gonna hao hao de rest le..hee..den went off to work at 12..waited for her call b4 i start working..but her stupid dancemates make her so late den dismiss..den chatted wid her for awhile b4 i started working..den at ard 3pm, i went down to united sq to look for her..pei her hav lunch..time past so fast..went to eat wid her..den haven even shop..she needa go back le..sian..so i send her back to her workplace b4 i go back lo..den cos irene sae she wanna go out..so i pei her lo..went back to suntec to return pass n sign out b4 goin to meet irene..went to vivocity wid her..wa..tt place realli big lo..dunno where we r walking oso..walk to harbourfront centre le..but i still dunno..hahaz..too big liao la..got time realli must bring dardar there..the outside scenary realli veri nice..hee =D
cos time reaching le..so took a train back to united sq to look for dardar..sat at chocolate art while waiting for dardar..so chatted wid the "da jie" over there lo..she treat mi eat chocolate..lolx..den pei irene go eat mac..while i drink coke..cos i was kinda thirsty..hahaz..den finally..dardar knock off le..hee..send her to tiong..den ask her call mi..she sae she call mi when she reach home..but till now she still haven call..hais..kinda sad..cos second time le..hais..den on my wae home..was listening to tis song.."i wanna be wid u" by xu jie er..i realli wanna be wid my dardar 4ever..n being wid her is realli a dream come true..how mani ppl can hav a gf tt u can realli be happy wid each time wid her..n both of u wanna stay longer wid each other?how mani ppl can hav gf tt can realli understand n care for u?not alot ba..but im one of the few lucky one to hav such a wonderful gf..so............wad m i complaining abt?fancy getting upset jus becos she did not call mi?ha..
dardar, although u did not sae..but i noe u r abit de jealous ba?fancy chatting so much wid irene n amaryllias?jus wanna assure u..no matter how much i tok to them..all my heart cud occupied de..is jus u..my one n onli one dardar..realli love ya alot alot..muackz
4:02 PM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
with LOVE ; *
ok..since im downloading some stuff now..i shall post =D
hmm..it's 1.14am now..a brand new day..hahaz..went to work ytd as usual..but dardar nvr bring her fone.."dardar..do u noe how worry im?almost wanna take a cab down to united sq to find u lo..hais..but when i noe u r safe..onli then i can fang xin..next time rmb ur fone la..don make mi worry"..after tt..met meimei..pei her go tiong bahru for her interview..at there saw my ex..somehow i don wanna c her la..but come to tink of it..i still shd thx her personally for ending tis relationship..if not for her..i wun be wid my dardar now..n i wun be so happy now..isn't it?hahaz..alright..next time if i wid dardar n saw her..i shall thx her..decided..hehe..i dowan tok to her w/o my dardar's pressence..dowan my dardar to jealous..not worth it..hee..jus love my dardar alot alot..can't live w/o her..muackz
after tt, went to united sq to wait for dardar..but ended up too early at united sq..dammed..waited for her for 3 whole hour..so boring..nth to do..sat at chocolate art there chat wid tt da jie..lolx..c dardar there so tired..n yet i got nth to do..my heart hurt so much..somehow feel so useless..let my dardar suffer so much..hais..i promise to work hard..no matter wad must gave dardar a good life..wanna pamper her =D
den finally waited till 10.10 le..she knock off..den walk wid her to mrt station where we take a mrt back to tiong..but no choice..card no money le..plus veri late liao..so i din sent her back to her doorstep..onli till tiong..but seriously still quite worry abt her safety..den ask her reach home call mi..NVR..but nvm la..at least she still call mi b4 she slp..hee..hao la..veri late le..wanna slp too..plus my dl finish le..hee..gd nitez
dardar: "WO AI NI 1314"
4:27 PM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
with LOVE ; *
okay..here im to post again..hahaz..if i don post again..ltr some1 gonna sae i nvr post my blog liao..hehe =D
hmm..last few day was working la..nth much to post..den ytd went wid dardar to orchard lo..walk walk..den went home..den todae pei dardar go orchard again..hahaz..we go far east to shop for clothing..cos she need it for her concert mahx..den after walking here n there..she brought a shirt at "little princess"..den she brought 2more shirt at giordano..after tt..we went to bugis street where she brought another skirt..lolx..din noe shopping was so tiring..guess is i old le ba..too long nvr go shopping le..lolx..but thru tis..i noe sth..she still acknowledge my existance..frm time to time..she will still come n hold my hand n hug while we r shopping..hee..realli glad she do tt..tt realli tell mi tt i stand a place in her heart..n she wud nvr let mi be lonely =D
after she's done wid her shopping..we went to marina sq to catch "world trade centre"..told ya it was a nice movie..which realli turn out to be true lahz..worth the money lahz..is a veri touching show..hee..cos b4 the movie start..we still got 2hours more to wait..i went to had my lunch at long john silver..den we went to buy hp key chain at mini toon..brought 2cute "dogs"..one for her..n one for mi..hee..den time arrive le..we went in for the movie..n by the time the movie ended..it was alrd 9+ le lo..hahaz..den we walk over to suntec to shop for awhile..before goin home..but sad tt i nvr send her home la..cos my bus fare no money le..SoB SoB
k la..oso quite late le..write till here ba..
dardar..i realli love u alot alot..time fly so fast when we r together..jus wanna be wid u every min n sec..love ya 1314..muackz
3:07 PM
Friday, October 06, 2006
with LOVE ; *
tis 2day nth much special..ytd watch "rob-b-hood" wid my ex-colleague..a veri nice show..funny n touching..must watch..hee..after tt..pei them go shop shop..den go home le..at nitez chat wid dardar..lucky she brought her fone along..if not..i will be "dead"..hahaz..
finally..todae dardar de camp over le..went to send her home..took an hour plus de bus..she slp an hour plus..lolx..after sending her home..i oso went home le..
dunno y..todae shd be a happy day..cos mi n dardar finally one mth le..but somehow im feeling up n down..too mani too mani tinks tt make mi veri de fan..nth to do wid u dardar..jus alot of other tinks r making veri fan..hais..argh!!!
ani wae..dardar..we 2 finally one mth le..past one mth was realli the happiest moment of my life..hope was happy for u too..maybe we 2 may hav feel unhappy at times..but alwiz rmb one tink..i will alwiz love u no matter wad..thx for being there whenever i need u..tot is not alwiz..but tt's enough le..hope to last till eternity wid u..ai ni 1314..muackz
12:53 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
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totally moodless todae..somehow i wonder..wad m i jealous-ing abt?they r jus frienz..ain't they?argh..i oso dunno ba..jus don lyk the idea of her msging guys so much n keep wanting to find him when cant find him..hais..jealousy do make a person hav mood swing..don u tink so?ha......do frienz realli matter more than bf?or do bf realli matter more than frienz?somehow i dunno which is more impt..dunno lei..jus had tis feeling tt u r more close to ur frienz than wid mi..whenever u had frienz..i felt so neglected..i felt so lonely..m i being too sensative?i realli hope so..
to dardar:i felt fun n laughter is gone..issit the feeling between us is disappearing?or m i tinking too much?i request for the "promise" becos i wan to assure u tt no matter wad happen..we will not leave each other..n to make u feel more relax when wid mi..n tell mi ur unhappiness..since we stead..i realli hope we sae wad's we wanna sae n wad's in our heart..i realli dowan u to hide ur feeling n be carefree n relax n hav fun in tis relationship..realli love u lots galz
3:04 PM
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wallet
sound system
my own atm card
shoes
clothing
contact lens
memories of us.*
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