Monday, October 16, 2006
with LOVE ; *
hais..wad a day..waited for dardar for 5hour n wad turn out to be is onli sadness..sob sob..went ard for 5hours while waiting for dardar..ate at behind bugis street tt market..had nasi lemak..n dunno issit becos of tt time food posioning..nowaday stomach cant seems to take chilli..den jus now keep goin to the toilet..jus tt 5hour..went to the toilet 3times le..hais..so xin ku..den finally dardar knock off le..so happy..den send dardar to the bus stop n back to tiong for dinner..but at the bus stop..sth happen..i pull dardar de hair band down..den she angry wid mi..tt's oso the first time since we stead..she angry wid mi..hais..sorri dardar..i noe wrong le..pls 4gave mi..den while trying to hoax dardar..she sae sth tt hurt my heart alot alot..she sae "i don trust ani one tt say im pretty"..tt sentence realli hurt my heart alot..i realli hate ppl hu don trust mi..ani one can don trust mi..but not u..i realli meant wad i sae..true enough..maybe to other ppl u r not pretty..but in my heart..u r 4ever pretty..i admit u may not be as charming as other ppl out there in tis world (lucky u r not..if not..we wun be together le)..but u noe wad is pretty of u to mi?IT'S UR HEART..the most beautiful tink on earth is not ur appearance..but wad comes out of u..
ok..continue...den on bus..ur frienz call u to tok abt some dance stuff..den after tt..u completely sian liao..den u show mi abit de attitude..but still..tt's alright..u let mi realize wad i did during tt imf period..realli sorri abt it..i alwiz believe everyone got their bad side..it's alright tt u show mi attitude once in awhile..i don mind..seriously i don..u my dardar..i wun be angry wid u jus becos u show mi attitude..i don feel suffer oso..cos i noe u r alrd veri stress up wid ur stuff le..n i realli dowan add on to it..n lyk i sae..i wanna u to be urself when wid mi..everyone in tis world will show attitude..but we try to control it..hao mahx?im alrd trying my best le..u too..kk?n one last tink tt i seriously hate myself for..while i was on the train..i noe u r not happy..i wanted to msg u to cheer u up..but when i started typing..all i cud type is "dardar..i noe u r unhappy........" n all i cud do was stare at it for the next 5min..tinking wad to write..but i realli dunno..n in the end?i ended up sending.."dardar..cheer up..gd nitez"..hais..my dardar is sad n there is nth i cud do..not even cheer her up..hais..m i even fit to be her bf?
SoB..next whole week actually plan to go find dardar almost everyday de..cos sch starting le..but c her shedule..i tink tt's not possible le..wanna c her oso difficult le..hais..but still..i don blame her..she got her tink to bz wid..n i dowan her to squeeze time out jus to pei mi..c her panda eye more n more obvious le..my heart hurt so much..she is so bz..n still need to pei mi go out every thing..SoB
jus now when u ask mi "u really think u tat fortunate..?"..the ans will definitly be a "yes"..the day i stead wid u..i knew im goin to cherish u lyk i hav nvr do in my life..realli jus wanna be wid u tis life..love u lots laopo..muackz
2:30 PM
wiishh uponn tha stars. *
wallet
sound system
my own atm card
shoes
clothing
contact lens
memories of us.*
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